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Boys....
So.... I really need to get over Matt but I don't know how. The only way I can think of getting over him is to go out with another guy but if I go out with another guy then I will feel so guilty. I really like this guy (different guy from the other journal I wrote) but I don't think that he likes me. I just wrote him a message on myspace and I sent ( Read more... ) -
Well.....
So I know that I said I liked a different guy other than Matt and part of that is true, but I know that me and this other guy will never work out. One he is taken again, two I am leaving in a month and three, I am so in love with Matt that it makes people sick. I can't even think about going out with another guy because to me it feels like I am ( Read more... ) -
Whatever
WTF I don't even know who the fuck I am. OR why people that I love are being JERKS to me. Fuck I love Matt so much and everyday it seems like I just get hurt even more. He deleted all my comments on myspace and he had no reason to delete one cuz it just said Happy Birthday. Whatever. I like this guy at school and I don't know what to do about it. I ( Read more... ) -
People
so anyways, I guess I am okay. I am doing better. I actually have a true friend and the funny thing is that he is a male. Wierd. I am so much better now that I have someone to talk to about my problems and not hear how right they were and stuff like that. But anyways, My solo in swing choir, is so freakin awesome. I love that I got the last one cuz ( Read more... ) -
Anyways.........
Fuck giving Matt untill Sunday...... I need to move on.... I still love with all of my heart but I can't let him hurt me anymore..... I love him so much and as long as he is happy then I am happy. I will miss him but all well, he lost me and Fuck I love him SOO much but me getting hurt is not cool either. whatever. -
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Whatever..............
So........... Yesterday I went home I was having a bad day. Anyways I walked down my driveway and saw that nobosy was home and I was like "okay this could be cool" then I went in to the house and walked to door and opened (I always close my door in the morning) And there on my bed is a letter from Matt I knew that it was sent while we were going ( Read more... ) -
well..............
So I have decided that Matt won't take me back and I don't think that I am okay with that. What have I done recently to hurt him? NOT A THING. But whatever. I love him more then anything in my life and i have tried and tried to explain this to him and he just won't listen. I don't know what to do. SOMEONE please help me out of this stupid life that ( Read more... ) -
Wow
SO.... completly exciting..... I texted Matt and it said Matt I love you more then you'll ever know, and he texted me back then he called me and we talked for 5 minutes. I am so happy right now. I love him so much and I hope that we work everything out because he is my other half and he is my better other half and I love him with all of my heart. I ( Read more... ) -
My fucking Life
I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHINING EXCEPT MATT AND HE DONT CARE ABOUT ME AND SO I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR, BUT WHATEVER