can he know
the pain it all causes?
can he know
how hard i'll try to hold back the tears?
can he know
how much i hate to feel anything but love towards him?
can he know?

does he know?
please.
no.
i hope he doesn't know.

long time, no post. i should work on the posting more often thing.

house is pretty much the best show ever. =]
spring break is fun.
other than that, not too horribly much has been going on.

love love love.

lalala.
so yesterday was a lazy birthday.

and i'm sad cuz i can't go to chris's on sunday.
but other than that, things have been good.
christmas was fun.
wednesday and thursday at chris's were awesome.

miss you brotherhead.
♥

AP Physics makes my brain tired. but i mostly understand it.

i'm starting to figure things out.

things are looking up.

Fire today. 
less than a mile from my house. 
burned all the hills. i think a few houses caught.
but the wind blew the other direction, so we were okay. 
except now we're finally getting the smoke, cuz the wind is coming our way. ew.

soooooooooooooooooooooo my schedule is as follows:

1 (7:30-8:25)-- pre-calc/rathfelder
DEAR (8:30-8:45)
2 (8:45-9:45)-- world history/garza
Brunch (9:45-10:00)
3 (10:05-11:00)-- honors english 10/skousen
4 (11:05-12:00)-- AP Physics B/rathfelder
Lunch (12:00-12:40)
5 (12:45-1:40)-- German 2/bellermann
6 (1:45-2:40)-- Marching Band/taylor

indeed.

okee, so today, i'm leaving for arizona.
i'll be back next tuesday, my loves.

and i will miss you muchlies.
very very very muchlies.
if my cell worked, i'd call you guys. but i'm dumb, and i can't find the charger. so yeah.

lovelovelovelove.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

okay, so my plans for tomorrow are now to sit and do nothing, because my sister had nowhere to go, so i can't see chris.
so now i won't see him until like, november.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

something i am allergic to keeps biting me.
i have 13 bug bites. one on my back turned into a big welt thingy. mom made me take benedryl.

itchy!!!
painy!!!
squishy!!!

ew.
dumb bugs

okay, most of these pictures from my trip were not mine. but it's kinda boring to look at pictures of people you don't know. so hey! i'll show you these ones that i kidnapped.

( pictures with erinn in them! oh joy! )