038 [voice; Japanese] [Filtered away from Seishirou and friends]

[shockinglycool]

[There's a pause of a minute before Sorata starts talking. He sounds tired, and a little forced.]

I'm really fine now. Bruises aren't really something to cry over. The pain from the illusions - the fake pain... it's pretty much faded. My hand probably should hurt, but I can't feel it...

[Pause.]If I use my left hand to do it I can bend my fingers

Comments

[ Voice | Have some more tl;dr]

[rex_britanniae]

I believe I might understand what you are saying.

I also understand about taking burdens entirely upon oneself. I do not believe that it is something borne of one's ego, nor from looking down upon others. It is a form of compassion; it can be a blind compassion at times, but compassion nonetheless. It is our desire to spare others from suffering what we do, but by that we are sometimes deciding for those around us rather than allowing them to make that decision for themselves.

I was once told that it was a heavy burden to bear, and indeed, it is. But I think that in these circumstances, we will all be better served to rely upon one another. It is a difficult thing for me to become accustomed to as well, but it is a necessary adaptation.

[Voice]

[shockinglycool]

Yeah...

Everyone... has been telling me for a while... "don't just decide for me" or - "don't be a hypocrite."

It's not like I didn't know what they were talking about... just...

I don't know. "Just" what? I didn't want to think about their feelings. I wanted them to think the way I wanted them to. I wanted the world to work the way I imagined it would. I don't think I'm a bad person... maybe just a lazy one. I started convincing myself I knew how things were gonna be, and... I was wrong.

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[angelic_lawyer]

In some cases, keeping things from people is a method of protection, both for them and for yourself.

{voice; japanese}

[shockinglycool]

Depends on what you're keeping from 'em, I guess.

{voice; japanese}

[angelic_lawyer]

Of course.

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[shockinglycool]

It's easy to figure it out for other people.

Can rationalize it, y'know...?

Tricker otherwise.

[prodigal_axe]

...

Lost feeling eh? Er, maybe it'll change when you heal up...

[shockinglycool]

...

You were there when Dr Stiles was.

[prodigal_axe]

Yeah but.. it ain't for sure. You could regain some of it..

[shockinglycool]

[...] Maybe if I had my chip out.

I'm not tryin' to get depressive. I just - don't want to get my hopes up if it ain't gonna lead nowhere.

Anyway, it's not a big deal either way.

[mean_left_hook]

I'm not sure if this helps at all, but I've got more than a little experience in physiotherapy- especially when it comes to hands.

I might be able to do something for you.

[shockinglycool]

...I'd appreciate it. But I'm not really supposed to get my hopes up, based on the initial appearance of the damage.

Right now I wanna say, 'don't trouble yourself,' but... Guess I don't really want to give up myself, yet.

[stupei_iori]

Well, you do sound a bit better today...

Sucks about your hand... But, it's only been a day. I'm sure it'll get better. I mean, it's not like things heal overnight... Well, big things. Little things can... Like hangovers. Then again, you usually make hangovers overnight, not heal from'em...

But hey, it's awesome that you're feeling better, bro. If ya ever need someone to chill with, I'm your man!

[shockinglycool]

Hmm. [...] Guess if it doesn't heal...

...it's kinda more impressive than your scar, far as ranking war wounds go.

[stupei_iori]

Dammit!

... I don't really wanna get shot again though. Guess you're gonna beat me that way.

[shockinglycool]

I'm a winner in everything I do, y'know. Even war wounds.