Today I can honestly say I'm feeling much better. If you had asked me two days ago I would have said the complete opposite. But now I'm truly feeling better. I don't have that desperate need to fight and cry and beg for him anymore. I'm back to being focused on my son and myself. Do I still love Jon and hope that he comes back to me? Of course. I ( Read more... )

Let me start out with saying I love my Live Journal. I'm able to use this to write all of my feelings out so instead of holding then in until I explode, I can cope with things. Now onto the real issues ( Read more... )

It's now new years day. 2013 here we are. And what do you have in store for me this time around? More death and loss and pain and hatred? If that's the case please tell me now so I can put an end to it before I have to suffer anymore. In one year I managed to lose the only grandparent I had left that I liked. I lost my step father, who I had never ( Read more... )

I write this because I know the one person who might be able to help me out a little bit still checks her LJ. ^_^ The issue I'm having is for some srtange and obsurd reason today I randomly thought of Captain (Tim Schwartz. Ever since then I havent been able to stop thinking about him. Not in a sexual way or anything that would made me feel guilty ( Read more... )

Here we are. 3:30AM and I'm awake, on my computer, and bored. Seems to be how it always goes with me. This time it's under the influence of a 5 hour energy shot. Jon is completely passed out next to me. In fact he just elbowed me in the rib cage. But that's alright because apparently I do a lot worse to him in my sleep. Alright, this is a journal ( Read more... )

Well it's been a while since I've been able to write anything in here. And it seems like all I have to vent about again is a guy. Figures huh? lol I'm dating a guy named Jon right now. He's a really good guy, treats me well, supports himself, and he's very good looking. We've been together almost 2 months and everything is going very smoothly. He's ( Read more... )

Just letting the general public know that I do update my LJ every once in a while but it is now on Friends so unwanted people cannot read it. If you wish to still read it make a LJ and I'll add you to my friends list when I can.

-Shiro

::sigh:: I don't even know where to start...things here have been...hectic...to say the least. My parents haven't spoken in the past three days accept to scream at each other. I don't know what to say to either of them but they're both talking to me. I'm not used to my stepdad being this pissed off and not taking it out on me. I'm usually the only ( Read more... )

My dad has decided that just because my mom is mad at him he's going to take it out on me and my little brother. We're not allowed to do anything when she's not home anymore. He comes back from his camping trip a day early and has become even more of an asshole than before. I'm not sure how much more of this I can take before I snap. I just want to ( Read more... )

I have the house to myself until Friday when my dad comes back from his camping trip with my brothers. I'm very happy about this because it gives me a freedom I don't usually get. He's not here to yell at me or to tell me who I can or can't talk to. I talked to Amy on the phone for the first time in a while. It felt good to hear her laughing with ( Read more... )