It’s been forever since I posted. I’ve been busy. It’s crazy that the more going on in your life, the less time ou have to write. In the time in between entries, I’ve dated a few guys, stopped being a total whore, and resolved to run the New York Marathon this year. I begin training in a week. Third semester ends soon, in four days, in fact. Tyler’ ( Read more... )

I’m writing this much delayed entry from my new apartment. It’s a studio in the basement of an old Russian couple’s home in Queens. They don’t speak English very well, but that’s okay. I’ll just have to learn Russian. The area’s really nice. There’s a lot here and it’s very ethnic which I like. The only thing I don’t like so much is how far away ( Read more... )

I’m in the airport again. This time flying back to my other home, where I have no real home to return to. Tami has not yet found an apartment, so I will have to be a guest in Desiree’s from a while. It’s okay, but I might feel a little ungrounded for a while ( Read more... )

"Don't look at anyone on the trains, just read your magazine."
Oh, Fatih, what are you doin' to me?

Why is it that every time I return home, it is always a signal that my life is about to take some sort of turn. I'm not sure where this one is going. I know that I don't need to be afraid of it; just hold my breath and forge on fearlessly ( Read more... )

I was going to start this out semi-dramatically with a bit of a thing on how this would be my last time home ever and no one knows it but me, but I’ll start it off in a little more typical, if even uncouth, fashion ( Read more... )

I got into the elevator with this girl and we said hello to each other. A few seconds passed and she said, "You must be very good in ballet" and I asked her "Why?" She said I had such good poise. I told her thanks and that I'm actually in studio but I took ballet for fun last semester. She seemed disappointed ( Read more... )

Wow. So.... My love and sex life for the past month has been so disjointed and schizophrenic. I've stopped being so hopeful with Dennis, because he's always so busy, and.... I still like him, but I've got to detach. And of course I can't just detach... Not lately at least. So I've attached to two new guys. Rob and Rolando. Both hispanic. Rob is ( Read more... )

I'm just her... chillin'. Literally and figuratively. The heating's not working down here I don't think. Anyway, this weekend has been great ( Read more... )

Here’s a little snippet of the folk singer at 18... Just moved to New York.... She’s had her mouth hanging open for about three days... I remember vividly the learning process of all the prostitutes working the little... cobblestone streets below my window. It was like, “No honey. Those are not women; they look a lot like women,” but it was like, “ ( Read more... )