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[shel_chan]

i don't care anymore.
i'm not sure if that's good or bad, but i can't even seem to care enough to consider that.
sure, i still get jealous... and then i tell myself that i don't care and for once, it seems to be working.
remember how upset i was about losing our babies? well not anymore.
remember how they used to be on my mind all the time? well not

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[eda1102]

Wow.
I think you have no idea how... meta this is for me. Because you're actually going through...relationship troubles, breaking up and getting back together with her. And it's just... well, meta.
Also I'm tired. jsyk.
But I think that writing it down all like this is actually like.. one of the basic steps to acceptance of the situation and probably, over time, you'll be able to/forced to tell her, too.
But again, I'm tired, so I probably have no idea what I'm talking about, sorry.

Love you and hopefully, in some time, the relationship with me will be the number one again. Oh god, do I sound pathetic, or what?
Anyways, g'night~

[shel_chan]

Fun thing, it sounds kinda meta to me too... like I wasn't really a part of it anymore, you know? You probably don't. I don't either. The journal above is about the most thought I've given her in over a week... close to two, maybe, actually. I don't know. Feels weird. Remember how I told you the days suddenly seem to long and without a purpose when there's no RP? So now that I'm done with the thesis, it's... no, actually, I don't know what it's like yet because I haven't stopped being busy, lol :P
Love you too, and idk, you don't really sound pathetic to me? :<
Nightttttt~ <3

[eda1102]

Okay, maybe it's a bit more meta for you, since you're 'supposed' to be part of it, but aren't as much as you used to be.
Wow, this is hurting my brain, at this late/early hour.
Yeah I suggest you'd focus on getting all the ...exams and 'staze' done now. I hope that is keeping you busy, c:
(Who am I to talk? Still not even in half of the thesis, and again only started working on it about 6 hours before this weeks' part should be done.)

I feel pathetic (kinda), since ...we're together, right? but I get to read and respond to your 'angsty' heart-broken journals on lj. It feels like 2007 and you were lovesick because of Sara, I loved you then, too. And well, now it's similar, though absolutely different.
I don't actually know what I'm saying. Too bad it's in lj comments and not on the phone so it's not gonna get forgotten so easily.

<3

[shel_chan]

Yeah... that. It sounds about right but then, does it make sense?! At all?!
And yep, will do, sir c: Working on the thesis atm still, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!
(Augh BLUB sorry, pup! :< )

Yeah but that's not because of pathetic you, dude. And... yeah, no, God no. I don't even know which year that was, actually... 2007 you say?
OTL b.l.u.b.

<3