suicidal ideation annoyances

[shatterstripes]

Ugh. Why is the part of my brain that keeps on muttering “your mother is dead, you feel like shit, kill yourself” over and over again the first bit to wake up and the last to go to sleep. Being up and doing other things drowns it out but it's always there first thing in the morning and last thing at night and I'm getting tired of its helpful

Comments

[porsupah]

My demons are different, of course, but why this "close your eyes and let the underworld play" syndrome should be so commonplace..

I suppose that's one tiny benefit of having a job that's yet to actually start: if I need to be awake for another couple hours, it makes no difference to anybody. (I don't know if the same applies to you, but, if I do just pause going to sleep and fart around for another hour or two, the subsequent attempt to dive into slumber is seldom so plagued)

[frameacloud]

Implement a different startup sequence. Program a different and more desirable app to open first, and through reinforcement, to eventually override the unwanted one.

[ff00ff]

*sends internet hugs*