another year gone by

[shatterstripes]

The first thing through my head in the morning is “I should deal with those life insurance policies on Mom except wait I still haven’t gotten the death certificates what’s up with that”. This is going to be a long forty-fourth birthday.

Then I check my email. Every computer wishing me a happy birthday via email is like a little knife in the gut

Comments

[kamenkyote]

I had many of the same feelings when my first birthday came after my mom's passing.The life insurance was thankfully the easy part. I was the executor of the estate and that took over a year. It wasn't too tangled but the whole thing was rather depressing. I'm sorry for your loss. It does get easier. Always be glad for the time you had. Don't let the hole get too big, if that makes any sense. *hug*

[shatterstripes]

Yeah, it does. Thanks.

It's hard to deal with all this stuff. In part because it's the kind of financial thing that always stresses me out. And in part because working on it reminds me that she's dead, and I start being sad and weepy, and I can really only manage about one session of lying around staring into space and crying a week.