I Can't Decide Whether I'm Happy Or Sad

[shady_heaven]

     Okay, so I finally got an apartment.  It’s in a complex called Hampton Hills: visit www.merchantcircle.com/business/Hampton.Hills.Apartments.360-696-4721 to see a ( small ) picture of my new home.  
     The unit I’m getting, #14, is a partially-underground level 1/bedroom 1bath, all newly refurnished, and includes brand-new dishwasher/garbage/

Comments

[nightmaremuse]

It's great that your family has helped you out so much, Steph. Sometimes people really come through when you need them, and it sounds like you have a lot of support for your move. It seems really exciting, and I'm jealous!

I hope that moving away doesn't change how close you and your sister are, and I'm almost certain it won't. You've lived together for 18 years - surely that can't disappear over night! When my brother moved out it made me realize that I relied upon him for conversation and advice a lot more than I'd suspected, and oddly enough finally being able to appreciate him properly made us closer. Maybe something like that is happening for you and making you feel sad. And at least with the internet and phones and stuff you will be able to keep in close contact!

Congrats, I'm glad it's worked out for you! I'm sure the sadness will lessen as you begin the new era. And if you feel lonely, I'm always good for a chat or email.

x Nikki

[shady_heaven]

Well, I've always known how important my sis is to me, and I never once took that for granted, but I think the date getting closer and closer just finally drove it home, made the fact of my leaving feel more *real* and permanent ( even though I know it's not ).

Phones and internet are great, but they can never, ever replace physical proximity. There are just some things you can do in person that you can't online or on a phone: like watch shows together, play board games, etc. etc. you get the picture.

Thanks as always for your support *hugs*. I have the feeling that when I move, you may suddenly find yourself hearing a *lot* more from me.

[lycan_master750]

Great! You have your own place now! Bummer, that you have to leave your sister behind. Not many siblings are that close that your consider them your best friend.

My cousin Fred is my best friend, I've known him since we were babies, he was at my 1st birthday party.

[shady_heaven]

My sister and I have always been abnormally close. From time she was 2 her and I became the best of friends. Sometimes she was the only friend I had. Time just drew us all the closer - even though we have some very different talents, tastes, and interests we have so much common ground, and get along so well with each other, it doesn't matter a whit, and we hardly ever fight. Also, our personalities compliment each other; she's an artist, I'm a writer; she's a feeler, I'm a thinker; she loves to *make* music, I love to listen to it. Sure, there are good days and bad days, but overall the good FAR outshines the bad, and I feel happiest when around her. I wouldn't trade our relationship for the world. You can't put a value on what we have.

Which is why this move is going to be so hard for me. I'll always be counting down the days until we can visit.

[inkstersco]

It's not like Americans to consider 85 miles a long distance!

Besides, can't you keep in touch with your sister via various things, internet etc? It's not like you've forsaken your family; you've just got your own place. And be careful with deposits. I know from experience that landlords will find any excuse whatsoever to retain your deposit.

--Iain

[shady_heaven]

It is when you're missing someone! And have neither the time nor money to make the trip every day. -_-

I know the internet and phone are great ways to keep in touch, but they'll feel so hollow and cheap compared to what I'm used to. There are just some things you can't do over the phone or through the internet. My sister and I are very, *very* close: just read the reply above yours if you want an idea. I would go so far as to call us sisterly soulmates.

Which is why this is going to be one of the hardest challenges I'll ever face.

As for the deposit - I'm pretty much expecting not to get a cent of it back. Because I know from watching my parents' ordeals they'll look for any excuse.

That's okay - just something I have to put up with if I want a place of my own. If I *do* get any back, I'll be pleasantly surprised.