as i tear down posters and pack up my stuff, it blows my mind that this year is already over. like myself, everyone seems to be asking, where did this year go? its especially weird for me as i put together my things, because i think of how when i puting those things up in august, i was a completley different person. my life was different, and had i ( Read more... )

well, i came home this weekend...to attend my cousins wedding. though i missed out on honnas 21 celebration and oozeball (i freaking named the team)...i wound up having a nice time with my family. this is my favorite time to be home because my house is covered in a canopy of vivid green leaves. its so pretty and makes me think of my favorite time, ( Read more... )

on friday in dance class, the very first song that was played was the song that caused me to create this journal. it was shadowboxer by fiona apple. so as expected, many things came rushing back, and that sick feeling in my stomach sat for a very long time. fortunatley, for me, it was my first day of counseling. how appropriate.

i was really starting to feel bad for this thing since i am approaching three months of not writing in it. i believe i have avoided it because when i think about writing, i think about how much there is to say, i get overwhelmed and just run from it. so no lengthy posts from me-- not for a while atleast. i cant really think of anything to say. i ( Read more... )

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so here is to two thousand and seven. heres to an attempt to forgive and forget the pain that 06 held. not to say that all of 06 was awful...it certainly held some wonderful times, but sadly those have been blinded by the painful latter part of the year. so to a new fresh start. i have my goals and plans, my resolutions if you will. and i am just ( Read more... )

i have just spent the last three hours on my feet baking cookies. and i am talking hardcore. everything from scratch and i had no idea that baking was that draining. granite, i had a good time, but thank god Christmas only comes once a year because i don't know if i could be doing that more than once a year ( Read more... )

its really really hard. and the hardest part hasnt even come yet. this is probably the easiest part im going through right now...and even the easiest part...its really really hard.

we will see what ten days holds.

one down.
one to go.

i need to, more so, i want to, but i cant.

$#^&$#@%##$@!@$%$^.

broken doesnt quite do it justice. the only reason im writing is so that every time i pull this page up, i dont see a date that was before all of this took place. and this is all i get out right now.