I think you should do what you feel would make you happy, but will be able to help you pay the bills. It's good to have a career that means something to you, and sometimes trying something new is actually benefical to your well-being. Maybe you should ask your boyfriends to give you a loan so you could pay for your classes. If they can't afford to do so, then you'll find another way to get the money. You're smart and know how the real world works (including academia). Just remember that you should know how to play the game and how to play it well. *hugs you and kisses your hand* Have a lovely morning, raja.