Epilogue

[shadesong]

(What has gone before...)

I went back to Vegas last month.

When I say that, I feel like Christian in Moulin Rouge - "I first arrived in Paris one year ago." And then the zippy time-going-in-reverse thing

Comments

[wolfshaman]

Wow! No words to describe how this affects me.
I am glad that you have ripped away the facade of the demons and can see new truths.

[shadesong]

I'm trying to describe the indescribable. Like catching wind. I don't know if anyone will understand - but I need to write the words as best I can.

[wolfshaman]

The words that you wrote are very well done. It is very well written.

I know that I will never fully understand but it certainly opens a window and allows for a peek into what your past life was like.

[icybright]

Thank you...

[shadesong]

You're welcome.

I finally did what I needed to do...

[icybright]

You did. You did...and I'm amazed at what a delicate and meaningful job you did doing it. *smiles*

[m0usegrrl]

i'm glad the Vegas trip worked out as well for you as it seems to have... =) ::hugs::

[shadesong]

*hugs* I was so right about needing to go back.

So much perspective.

[tofu_cat]

From the distance of ten years, I can see. And I see that, all along, he was so small.

We were all so small.

You've got it.
Exactly. Right.
You rock my world.

[shadesong]

I had no way of realizing without standing there, y'know? I joked that it was "looming like a big looming thing before, and it isn't anymore", but I think these are better words.

He's not there. No more big scary monster.

[tofu_cat]

Oh, totally. I have my own analogue of your experience with a cousin of mine (another story for another time) and when I saw her after all the years, she (*wry*... yeah, a she) was so small, and so uncertain of herself, that, after the meeting, I felt so... free.

Hey, you, it took real guts to go back there. *thumbs up*

[shadesong]

I'm chock full of chutzpah.

It was hard to talk about what it felt like to prepare to go back...

[juliansinger]

Stop making me cry, dammit.

(Well, actually, don't ever stop, but I think you probably know what I mean.)

[shadesong]

Heh.

I'm glad I was able to show you. This is too internal for me to be certain that I'm making sense to anyone but me.