Insomia cometh

[shabenanizer]

The last time I was wandering around the hallway at 3:00 in the morning I bitched and cried that I want a mommy, not a soul sucking narcissistic parasite. When it isn't insomia it's old familiar nightmares; the neglected aquarium that belonged to my dad but I took on as my responsibility, my mom trying to covet my friend because she has none of

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[anonymous]

This is how I feel too, and I feel like I am so used to having to hide info from unsafe people, that with other people and family members that aren't obviously unsafe, or that seem safe so far, I'm hesitant to test them with true info and risk having to maybe find out that they also are not safe--already too many losses in my life.--quartz

[shabenanizer]

The problem is I extend hiding feelings from unsafe people to safe people. There's not reason to hide my feelings from my sister, the safest person in the world, but I do. So stupidly frustrating! Anyway, thank you for reading and commenting, it helps a lot to know there are people feeling the same thing I'm feeling.