Even knowing what's coming - reading it all together like this, I find my pulse raised and by breath held and WOW. You blow me away. ♥
This time I really, really appreciated how close Rodney comes to seeing the answer at first - how close, but so far away, because he insists on taking full responsibility. But when he's talking to Ronon? He's got it, then! He knows full well Ronon - all the others - have their own agency, can make their own choices and take their own chances. He just can't let them, not using the FTC, and he never thinks about not trying, so... Yeah. Wow.
But, eee - John waiting at his bedside and it's real and John talking him down when he freaks out and Any one worth living in - I love it all SO MUCH! ♥ ♥ ♥
"It's okay," he says, "I just got it. What I was missing. Or what wasn't missing, what should have been missing-the observer effect, of course, I could cancel out my bias but I couldn't change my perspective. I was always there; even when I wasn't on the mission, I was influencing it, dictating its course with everything I knew. Every detail, every insight; and they didn't need me, nobody needed me, when they all had their own choices to make, their own chances to take..."
Oh, perfect punchline--Heisenberg ftw! (And a lot of angst und pein on Rodney's part.) That he had to go through all that because he couldn't let himself not be part of the rescue effort, that in order to save them he had to let go, and he couldn't (wouldn't) voluntarily do that.
Any one worth living in. "This one," Rodney says. "This one works fine for me."
Hee, yes! The Uncertainty Principle has fascinated me for years, and I can't help but think it must drive Rodney mad, if he lets himself consider it, that there are truths he cannot know, just because the knowing of them changes the very truths he desires...
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thank you &hearts
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Even knowing what's coming - reading it all together like this, I find my pulse raised and by breath held and WOW. You blow me away. ♥
This time I really, really appreciated how close Rodney comes to seeing the answer at first - how close, but so far away, because he insists on taking full responsibility. But when he's talking to Ronon? He's got it, then! He knows full well Ronon - all the others - have their own agency, can make their own choices and take their own chances. He just can't let them, not using the FTC, and he never thinks about not trying, so... Yeah. Wow.
But, eee - John waiting at his bedside and it's real and John talking him down when he freaks out and Any one worth living in - I love it all SO MUCH! ♥ ♥ ♥
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Yup, that conversation with Ronon was the necessary set-up for the end. So glad the whole story worked the second time through! *snuggles*
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Oh, perfect punchline--Heisenberg ftw! (And a lot of angst und pein on Rodney's part.) That he had to go through all that because he couldn't let himself not be part of the rescue effort, that in order to save them he had to let go, and he couldn't (wouldn't) voluntarily do that.
Any one worth living in. "This one," Rodney says. "This one works fine for me."
Perfect.
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