What am I doing? What am I doing? What am I doing? What am I doing?

[sethisalive]

This has been the most agonizing morning, as I decide whether to let my neural networks course die a flaming death, cutting my losses

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take time out to breathe

[kindatesst]

Breathe.

Then weigh alternatives. Where are you? Where do you want to be? (a long range plan helps, because stopping and starting is exhausting).

Breathe.
Then ask yourself how you can get there. Decide how fast you want to go...decide how crazy you want your life to be.

Breathe twice.
Then choose and don't look back, calling upon that discipline you know you have to following through to the end the course you chose. Every choice has a price and a reward. Know what you're paying for.

Then breathe again. :)

Tough choices, I know. It's not impossible to do what you want to do...it's just impossible to do what you want to do when it's only a part of you doing it, and the other part of you arguing yourself as to why you shouldn't be doing it, and spending a lot of time/energy considering options and other distractions.

Take care of yourself - T

Re: take time out to breathe

[sethisalive]

Thank you so much for your support. I needed to hear it yesterday. It helped.
I learned a lot from this experience, and I don't think it was simply stopping and starting. I learned some things that I couldn't have learned had I not taken this course. At this point, I think it's smarter to stop and start steering in the right direction.
The path I'm taking is a continual work in progress. Sometimes I will stray off the path without knowing I've strayed...until I've actually strayed. This is one of those times.
E

[sethisalive]

Thank you so much for your support, Nicko. I really appreciate it, and it was so good to hear yesterday, and to read again today. :) My life is a continual work in progress, and I guess this is just one of those times where I encountered a "trial and error" phase, and it's time to ABORT ABORT ABORT. :) Hope to see ya soon after your own wild 'n' crazy studies are done for the semester. I'm rootin' for ya! Youuuu can dooo it!

[queueball]

Last paragraph (whole entry, but especially that) = t3h grin. :)

[sethisalive]

:) Thanks, Q!

[eclectic_loner]

Oh V, as you once wrote to me, "Seriously, don't stress!" While I am a GIGANTIC proponent of self-education, it definitely has limitations; overtaxation is a definite risk. However, the fact that you would even attempt all of these learning projects simultaneously still suggests great fortitude and self-discipline (and your academic record as well). Keep on truckin, buddy... you have a better notion of the magnitude of workload that you can handle by yourself, and it's a useful realization.
After all, we must undergo the experience of imbalance to understand balance :)

P.S. We totally must hang out soon! Perhaps when the semester is finished, though :) I have piles and piles to do right now.

[sethisalive]

Thanks, P-buddy! You are my favorite PPPPPPPPPPPPPP!

I think it wasn't self-education itself---it was just that the sheer amount of education required in the amount of time was just not possible, be it self-education or education education.

Good luck with your work, miss ya, talk to you soon, thanks again for your support! You know I got yo back, too, brutha, whenevah!

Re: For you

[sethisalive]

Love it! ;-D
I gotta try Python ;)