before i even start to say what im about to say, i love my daughter and husband very much and i wouldnt trade them for anything in the world. okay. sometimes im sitting late in the night and i think to myself that i made a mistake by having izzy too soon, that ive missed out on so many things and im gonna miss out on more. but then i feel like ( Read more... )

long nights and the smell of baby formula gets to you after a little while i guess. i had my beautiful little girl on january 6th. shes absolutly perfect in every way. and normally youd think that being young parents like nate and i would stress us out and feel a little resentful of each other like it happens to so many people, it really has made ( Read more... )

look another update and it hasnt been 6 months since the last one. i just need a place to vent some frustration right now. i had another doctors appointment last friday, normal stuff for the most part. but when dr. loman checked for the baby's heartbeat, and he couldnt find it where it was supposed to be. it was a little upsetting at first cause he ( Read more... )

well i figured its been long enough since i updated last. i dont know if anyone actually reads my journal but it doesnt really matter, i do it for my own entertainment. so lets see, whats happened in the past few months that i havent been on my live journal. well, nate and i had to cars fuck up on us. he blew up the mazda back in july because of an ( Read more... )

i guess its time to update. seems that its been a while. nate and i got married. im having a baby. im almost 4 months now. one thing i have noticed though about life and being who you are.... maybe this will shed some light onto whoever actually reads my journal. when i was a kid, 13,14 years old... i turned into this person, now people would call ( Read more... )

sad day. dont wanna talk about it. i wish there was something i could do to make nate feel better.

im so fuckin happy, oh my god i just cant believe how good everything is. its just perfect. everything ive always wanted. he was a man lost in the desert, and im his oasis. his relief. ive waited for him for six years and now everything it right.

WOOOO! MY BROTHERS GETTING MARRIED ON FRIDAY! YIPPY!!!! IM SO HAPPY. now mom will get off my back about having kids, and focus on shannon! yay!

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well i got my xmas shopping done. i dunno, im not really into the whole holiday thing this year. in all honesty, i just couldnt give a flying fuck about xmas or much of anything at the moment. i did get a good paycheck yesterday though. i paid all my bills and i still have like $200 left, so im happy about that, for once all my money isnt going to ( Read more... )