i can't explain things properly anymore and they just get all fucked up. the things i want the most i can't have and i have to take what i can get and then i can't explain how that works out. i can't fix everything cause i can't explain everything or get to have the right conversations or something.... so i hope things don't backfire on me just ( Read more... )

my god i am so fucking pathetic

subject lines tend to be grr all the more lately...............
interestingly enough, considering.......

i just really i hate being confused, which is what i am now. i don't know if i should just go away or do what i want....
see, this is why communication is good, cause if i'm just totally not catching on, then i don't ... catch on! so.... if its just a mood thing and my timing is horrible, then i just need to know.....

ok...
so grr...

do you think its karma?
i mean, this has happened twice now....
does that mean anything?

how can i need you this much?
i need to sleep entwined in your arms and be with you...
it hurts that it doesn't happen...
i want to make love to you, and look into your eyes, and just.....
grr....

this is whats in my head today ( Read more... )

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i miss the way things used to be ( Read more... )

figure i'll take this test again to see if anything has changed in just under two years.. :)

DisorderRatingParanoid Personality Disorder:LowSchizoid Personality Disorder:LowSchizotypal Personality Disorder:LowAntisocial Personality Disorder:LowBorderline Personality Disorder:LowHistrionic Personality Disorder:HighNarcissistic Personality Disorder: ( Read more... )

it is too fucking early...
i need to go to bed earlier for the next two weeks or this is NOT going to work...