I have a pulse again ... his name is Ian ... I have so much to share, but I'm going to keep it short. It's finally happened people ... I'm back in the world of the living and am excited to share the news with you all ... I'm dating someone again ... Smiles:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

Falling for this guy ... feeling a bit unsure of myself ... because I'm used to being hurt, I'm preparing myself for the worst ... wondering why his friend won't let things happen between us ... why does happiness continue to elude me???

Ian ... what can I say??? Just when he's turning on the charm and I'm starting to like him, he fucks up. He got completely hammered on Friday night and said and did things he shouldn't have ... now he's avoiding me out of embarassment and shamed. I wonder if we'll ever get back to where we were ... things were beginning to fall into place ... and ( Read more... )

So last week after I went out with Ian and company, I found out that Ian has had an interest in me for nearly 4 months!!! Apparently, my whole family knew about it and chose not to tell me because they thought I would panic. Anywho, Ian's been talking to my aunt about me for quite some time ... and I've been assured that he certainly has an ( Read more... )

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Today I took another shower AND I washed AND dried my hair! And to top it off, I did it all without any painkillers. I took 800mg of Motrin this morning and that's all I've needed all day ... the stitches are uncomfortable more than anything else. ... I'm surprised that I'm not being more of a baby, but my body seems to be healing really well! On ( Read more... )

OK ... I'm leaving in a few minutes to go to Laguna ... surgery is at 9:15 ... I should be finished by 2:30 and then unconscious for the rest of the day. I'm extremely nervous, but I'm ready to do this ... I will see you on the other side!!!

Haven't been able to relax for the past 24 hours or so ... it will all be over soon. I did however recieve an unexpected visit from someone I thought I'd never see again. The one and only Adam came in and flagged me down just to say 'hello' ... my heart stopped and I got flustered for a second, but I made a smooth recovery. The funny thing is, I've ( Read more... )

Because of the weather, it looks like sunning by the pool in Palm Springs is out. So, dammit,I guess I'll be forced to drink in the casino where its dry ...

People piss me off ... I encountered a lot of people today and most of them ended up "on the list" - I don't know exactly what it was that pushed me over the edge, but when I snapped it was ugly. I'm tired of always being the giver and then being shit on when I need break. Blah!!!