Step Five

[senseiseiichi]

 ...Why did everything have to turn out like this?

There's too much anger and tension in the air. It's making me worried sick...maybe that's why I'm having difficulty walking right now. I may have to skip classes today just because I can't physically get there.

It was stupid. The entire idea was stupid, and I have no clue what I was thinking.  
...My

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[torikkusuta]

'Mura, take care of yourself and relax.

[senseiseiichi]

I wish it was that simple, Masaharu.

[torikkusuta]

*sigh* Nothing is ever simple in life, is it...? But that's reality for you... always stabbing you in the back when you least expect it...

[willowy_renji]

Seiichi...You're not the only counselor. Perhaps you should talk to one of the other ones. You of all people should know that it's not healthy to hold it all in.

And, just remember that this too shall pass.

[senseiseiichi]

Those of us in the peer counseling program have enough clients without taking on our coworkers. I think that right now...this is the tactic I need to take.

I hope so, Renji. I really do.

[willowy_renji]

I'm sure that's true. Though if you want to talk, you have my number. It's not always good to hide away. I'm one to talk

It will.

[senseiseiichi]

I may have to call you. It'll do both of us a world of good just to get out.

[clio_erato]

You need to take care of yourself, Yukimura. It won't do you any good to get so worked over something out of your control. It's a hard lesson to learn, but I thought you would have learned it already.

[senseiseiichi]

This is a...difficult situation, Atobe. And it was fully in my control to begin with.

Private to Atobe

I thought I had learned that lesson, too. And then it reared up and slapped me in the face.

Private to Yukimura

[clio_erato]

Is it still in your control now? If not then you need to stop obsessing. If it is, then you need to act.

It will do that. I thought I had learned that lesson with my injury and then my mother fell ill. It is a lesson that you need to re-learn often, I think.

Private to Atobe

[senseiseiichi]

It's half and half. On one hand, I could confront the situation head on and potentially lose a very valued friend. The other is to let him approach me after he cools off, but I'm unsure when that would be. He's...known for holding grudges.

What's sad is that every time that happens, you'd think once is enough.

[kippei_kun]

Yukimura, you have good friends to tell you this already, but please get yourself checked out and take better care.

Private to Yukimura

I mentioned this to Yanagi, and will to everyone. Maybe all of us should get together (meaning old Rikkai and old Fudo) do something fun, get to know each other. I don't think anyone really cares about what happened all those years ago, but it seems we still remember it. Maybe if we felt more comfortable around each other, misunderstandings wouldn't happen.

At any rate ... *points to top of comment* ... take care of yourself.

[senseiseiichi]

Thank you, Tachibana. It doesn't hurt to hear it, anyway.

Private to Tachibana

That sounds like a really good idea. I would have hoped that we all had gotten over what happened in junior high (I can assure that he was disciplined by Genichiroh once they returned to school), but it seems as though some old wounds have opened up.

Private to Yukimura

[kippei_kun]

:) As I said, that's water under the bridge. I think everyone is more concerned about what the *other* person thinks about what happened than they care about it themselves. Maybe once we know each other better, that will all stop. Please, God, let it be so.

I feel for Kirihara-kun. I occasionally get calls from people wanting to know about Kyushu. Come to think about it, I was the same age as Kirihara at the time that happened.

Anyway, still sending out feelers. It will take a bit of effort with six schedules to juggle.

And take care of yourself!