drama. my life is nothing but drama.

[seditlevia]

well, winter's over. it is now spring. and it's still so fucking cold.my mom and i talked that night. no, she didn't see the scar. she just noticed that i've been really down lately...and that i've been giving her bad stares. also, that night, my mom and dad talked about the expenses that should be paid...coz my mom can't take my dad's shit

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[halcyondream]

My Dad doesn't admit his mistakes either... it's what leads to all these fights. My mum's quite submissive, she just keeps quiet.. which depresses me more. So I decide to shout back to my Dad myself. I really think my parents would have been divorced by now if it wasn't for 4 children and Asian culture... which stupidly frowns upon divorce and sees it as cowardly. Stupid, stupid shit. It's forced my mum to live a life of terror for 15 years now.

You've got to try and keep strong. Strong for yourself and for your Mum, so she'll be inspired to be strong for you. If things are wrong try your best to make them right... you do have that power inside you... and remember, it's impossible to do better than your best. And look, you have hope.

Cherish that...

[seditlevia]

i know! that's what i hate about asian culture!...the man is always superior than the woman! it pisses the shit out of me. it took years for my mom to realize that my dad will never change and he is no good for her. since i was kid, i constantly see my mom cry because of my dad's screaming...insulting her on how stupid she is. my mom cooks for him, prepares him lunch for work and all he does is mistreat her...my mom doesn't even get a thank you for it. the thing is he believes that cooking for him is her job. my mom even advised me that i should never marry an asian man because of their beliefs that the man is the head of the household. ..because of my mom's experience with my dad, i swore to myself i'll never let a man drive me that way.
it's the same with me, my mom stuck to my dad for 17 years because of my brother and i...and as you said, asian culture, including religious beliefs that a divorce and separation is a sin(we're catholic). ...yap, it all so stupid.