For the majority of my life i have been able to live without the tenderness of a woman. when you are as vile and raucous as I, you can only assume that it is completely repulsive to the opposite sex. This is a bargain I am willing to take, honestly I'd rather be free to laugh horribly at all of the terrible things I can come up with, my sense of ( Read more... )

So a few things going on in my life, though not really ( Read more... )

Its been 39 weeks since I've posted anything here. I suppose its a while, but I don't really have anything to say, even now I dont have much to say, but I do know that i WANT to say something ( Read more... )

the worst kind of dream you could have is one where you are genuinly happy, and then you wake up suddenly looking for that person sleeping next to you, but all you find is cold sheets. I had a dream like that last night, a glorious happy dream full of happy happy feelings, and dreamt her brush up on my neck. I woke up suddenly to my imediate regret ( Read more... )

Stop listening ( Read more... )

soooooo FUCK. This is a shit of a feeling.

so im back in the CT, word to your moth er, or something along the lines of that. also, if any of my old CT cohorts, you know who you are, would like to witness how great i am, wednesday would be awesome. leave a comment with your number or something, and i will get back to you.

maybe.

So, I live in a fantasy world, sort of. Except I kind of ruin my fantasy with cynisism. Its more of a nightmare filled with gummy bears.

i posted a bunch of pictures on my myspace. its in the blog with something about rivers in it.

Mediocre Death Machine

Here is my quinticential post to a person who I know doesn't know about this livejournal ( Read more... )

So, I went crazy, went sober, and lost.

I am drink drink drinking again, and although I'd like to say it would be in celebration of overcoming my mental woes, I admit now that I lost.

I gave up, now I am normal again.

Which was right?