I don't want to be here anymore.  I'm not even sure if by that I mean alive, or just here, where I am ( Read more... )

 
People always ask me why I put so much pressure on myself.  Why I do so many things that just makes my life more difficult.  Why I push myself to the point where I’m breaking down.

I always tell people it’s how I’ve been my entire life.  I want what I can get out of life.  And if that means having a nervous breakdown every couple of weeks, so be it ( Read more... )

Another birthday come and gone.  And the only good I got out of it is now I don't have to rely on other people to buy me cigarettes.

I hate birthdays

So I might not be graduating on time

If I even make it that long

Okay.  So I've been trying to get the song Bare by The Cure for well over a year now.  It's one of my favorite songs and for forever, limewire refused to have it.  AND!  I JUST GOT IT TO DOWNLOAD ( Read more... )

So maybe what happened isn't going to be as bad as I thought it would.

I don't know what to think though...

This whole situation is weird... but I'm trying to be optimistic here

Fuck thanksgiving.  I wish it wasn't tomorrow 

I feel so alone right now.  And I have so much shit on my mind right now that I can't deal with.  All I need is someone to talk to.  But a while back I made some bad decisions and lost all those people.  Patrick wouldn't even talk to me.  I called him and he answered but immediately hung up the phone.  I don't know what to do... Maybe I'll run away

I'm falling for you ( Read more... )

Caught Between My Head And My Heart

You're drowning me.
Pushing me farther and farther down.
With water seeping into my lungs,
I know you don't want me around.

I can see it in your eyes,
And every time you attempt a smile.
Your regret for ever knowing me,
And ever wanting me around.

I've learned to see through your lies,
Though I'd rather not know the truth.
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