Comments | seanbug: Interesting thought

seanbug

Interesting thought

Oct 15, 2009 20:37

it may have been easier to be bi/gay/straight UNDECIDED and curious in ye days gone by when there were no actual contructed sexualities, other than generally assumed straight and playing around where you felt like it. Well for men at least, posisbly not for women. I hate people asking me what my sexuality is... i ponder it for ages and then give a ( Read more... )

gay, sexuality, alone forever, moaning, stupid

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diana_terrill October 16 2009, 03:23:49 UTC

I know this may seem like a tangent, but it's totally not, I swear ( ... )

seanbug October 16 2009, 08:49:59 UTC

aw thats nice, i completely understand what you're saying. i guess me problem just now feels like i don't know how to get what i want, I've suddenly changed into wanting a different sort of life to the one i've been livin for the past few years and its frightening me a bit, because i'm not sure if its a phase... or... what or something.
Incidentally, I had a dream that someon shouted "Sleep no more! Macbeth doth murder sleep! Macbeth shall sleep no more!" and woke up utterly confused and a bit shaken! :-P

phoenix_zeal October 16 2009, 07:02:51 UTC

You won't be alone forever, honey. *tight hugs* If all else fails, you can move to Sweden and marry me because gay marriage is legal here now. Or well, what I'm saying is, you won't be alone because at least you have friends like me by your side. A highly metaphorical side yes but nevertheless.
Have I mentioned that I suck at comforting people?

seanbug October 16 2009, 08:53:10 UTC

Aw sweetheart have i mentioned how awesome you are? I may oneday just turn up at your door and demand to marry you, because i now have it in writing (sort of), so don't be surprised if i do.
And thank you so much for the birthday present! It is utterly cool, i shall write you back soon and send you THE BOOK... id' better blody write something in it, hadn't i?

phoenix_zeal October 16 2009, 08:56:34 UTC

I would welcome you with open arms if you really don't mind being married to such a hopeless person like me, haha.
You're welcome. I'm so bad at buying gifts so I always struggle with what to give you so if you like it I'm spazzing. It is kind of unnecessary to send it back without writing something in it so yes, you bloody well have to. XD

emiliachi October 16 2009, 09:18:34 UTC

You have no idea how well I could relate to what you wrote...I haven't got a clue about my sexual orientation, either. When I still had a girlfriend, I eventually considered myself a lesbian, but now that I'm on my own again, I have no idea what I want or how to classify myself. And while I know that you don't have to label yourself, I still sort of feel the need to because otherwise I feel confused. You know what I mean?

And yes, I pretend to be cynical too when in reality all I want is someone to call my own, someone to be with forever...but where do you find that someone?

seanbug October 18 2009, 05:47:12 UTC

I think our society is really one of labels, and you do feel the need to label yourself as much as anything... it gives you an identity, because lets face it nobody really understands their identity, it's ninety percent an act for the outside world. But we spend so much time trying to work out what we should be that we forget to enjoy the merry haze of what we actually are...
as for the search... i have no idea where to look :(