i cant take it anymore. i hate feeling sick all the time. i hate what im doing to myself, and how i feel. I hate always having tears in my eyes, and breaking down in school. I want to get better. I dont want to feel like shit anymore. i feel like im going insane, or dying in the inside. I feel like im at my lowest right now. I cant sleep eat or ( Read more... )

i will always like graham, but for right now nothing is going to happen between us.. and i accepted that. i feel sick to my stomach, and my hearts on the floor, but im staying strong and havent cried... i think ill be alright. maybe someday we'll be together again. he will always be a part of me.. but for right now its best to keep my distance, so ( Read more... )

i want to loose weight, 10 pounds is my goal.. im not going to eat bread, and im going to watch the calories i take in.. im not over weight, just want to loose the extra fat on muh boddayy

ill miss you fooood...<3

i need to get good grades. i need to get a job. so i can buy a car.

im going to not go online as much, i need to focus on school. i suck.

Yesterday was fun, i went to zachs house with kelsey.. and graham was there. we do anything that exciting, but it was still a fun night ( Read more... )

school went alright, just happy that it's friday.. I went to the hockey game with kelsey and emma, it was fun. We lost to wareham, gaah. i get so intense in those games, its insane. Afterwards i got picked up by andrew and trevor and chilled back at his house with abby and megan.. i only stayed for a little while though, it was nice ( Read more... )

i just woke up, im still extremely tired..this weekend was really crazy, i smoked sooo much. Im kind of sick of it right now, if someone asked me to go for a blunt ride or anything i would pass it up. weirdddd.
shiitt..i have so much homework to do. craaap, thats no fun. my parents should be home soon.. i guess i should start cleaning.

im sooo tired, its insane. jeannie is sleeping over, that will be funn heh.

its 5:30 and i dont have any plans tonight.. how cool can i get?

Yesterday i had rachael and jenelle over.. it was a goood time, at first. But people thought that I was having a party at my house, so random shady people began to show up. what the hell, so i told them to fuck off.. eventually they left.. we ended up smoking soo much, i was already fucked up from the morning... fortunately later on we got picked ( Read more... )