2009 Fannish Year In Review!
Via my mother, a song about Christmas in San Diego. It's weird to watch a video where you recognize everything. My favorite cameo - the shoe tree at the place we used to play frisbee golf. Ahhh, nostalgia!
While I have a couple of minutes before the rest of my week kicks into high gear (except I started this HOURS ago and got busy and am only now finishing it while I take a breather), here is the first of a couple of year-end memes that I love to do. This one was distressingly easy this year because I produced almost nothing.
2005 | 2006 | 2007 | 2008
The Vids
Chances Are (Due South) - Once again, no Insane Vidding Project this year. I always hold the faint hope I'll do another one, but it looks less and less likely right now, especially as my vidding time gets more and more reduced. This was made for the ds-closet Love-a-bration and it was a complete surrender to my Id about Fraser and Vecchio. BOYS. It was a very easy vid to make, and I think that shows, but I still had fun with it and it was very low-stress, which I needed at that point because vidding had become hugely difficult for me.
What It Feels Like (Grease) - As I said in my notes on this vid, I had this idea for awhile, started it, and then hated it, before finally coming around to finishing it. I still feel like it's not quite the vid I had in my head, but people got the point of what I was going for so it succeeded on that level. It was such a struggle to make, a reflection of my continued vidding difficulties, brought on by pregnancy and also struggling with some deeper issues I had/am having with vidding in general, which I'll talk about below.
Say Hey (I Love You) (The Obamas) - This vid was very easy - and fun! - to make, and I finished it long before WIFL but had to sit on it for months because it was made for Club Vivid. I foisted it on anyone who came within viewing range, though. Hee. This vid was a real treat for me in response, too. I was so happy to hear it played well live; I only wish I could have been there to see it!
Overall Thoughts - Last year I talked about how I was dealing with my own vidding insecurities, and this year I got completely stoppered up by that, as well as all of the emotional and physical changes I was going through with the pregnancy. I realized while talking to heresluck a couple of weeks ago that my real wall with vidding right now is that I'm terrified to try to make a vid that isn't so much marshmallow. Something that I have to put deep and meaningful thought into, something that exists in my head and is complicated to get out. Because I don't feel like I CAN make those kinds of vids anymore, and especially not at the level everyone else is. I'm not sure I feel like I ever made those kinds of vids. As I said in the Poor Me Meme: I feel like my best days are way way way behind me. But I have some really good vid ideas, so I need to gird my vidder loins and just jump in and try to make one of them, rather than eating myself alive with the endless cycle of not having much time to vid, so using it for easy, lightweight vids, and then never feeling like I'm any good at vidding because I never try anything difficult anymore. And if I fail, I fail, but I need to try. I want to be a good role model for Puplet, at least! (Remind me of this when I'm whining this year, okay?)
My favorite of my own vids this year:
Say Hey, definitely.
My best vid this year:
Also Say Hey!
Vid of mine most underappreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
Eh. I think all of my vids were appreciated the amount they should have been this year.
Most fun video:
Tough call between Chances Are and Say Hey.
Video with single sexiest moment:
Um. Probably What It Feels Like, though I'm not sure.
Hardest video to make:
What It Feels Like.
Most unintentionally *telling* video:
Say Hey, I think. The other two were intentionally telling.
Do you have any goals for the New Year?
My New Year's Vidding Resolution is to get over my insecurity and vid already. And the crazy thing is, is that I'm looking forward to doing just that. My festivids vid is actually a step in that direction, and just trying something a little more complex has reminded me how much fun I do find it, even when it's impossibly difficult. So I'm excited about what the future holds in vidding terms this year, for the first time in a couple of years.
For concrete goals, I will finish and post my festivids vid, finish the ds-recsredux vidlet for thady I promised *cough*twoyearsago*cough* (omg I am so lame), and this is the year of a Wire vid or bust! (Props to my Wire Vidding Cabal. *g*) I also have this OC vid that's been eating at me, but I am not committing myself to that right now. I'd LOVE to have something for VVC Premieres this year, but we'll see. My vidding time is so hard to come by.
I didn't write any fic at all this year, though I posted what I have of my Prison Break Apocafic AU. I will get back to that someday. I hope.
If you have any specific questions about any of these vids, feel free to ask! As always, many, many, many thanks and gratitude to my betas and also to all the people who took the time to leave a comment on my work. It's worth repeating, as it is every year: for the people who say they "only" comment and don't produce much or anything - you all are doing a huge service for fandom. Thank you.
While I have a couple of minutes before the rest of my week kicks into high gear (except I started this HOURS ago and got busy and am only now finishing it while I take a breather), here is the first of a couple of year-end memes that I love to do. This one was distressingly easy this year because I produced almost nothing.
2005 | 2006 | 2007 | 2008
The Vids
Chances Are (Due South) - Once again, no Insane Vidding Project this year. I always hold the faint hope I'll do another one, but it looks less and less likely right now, especially as my vidding time gets more and more reduced. This was made for the ds-closet Love-a-bration and it was a complete surrender to my Id about Fraser and Vecchio. BOYS. It was a very easy vid to make, and I think that shows, but I still had fun with it and it was very low-stress, which I needed at that point because vidding had become hugely difficult for me.
What It Feels Like (Grease) - As I said in my notes on this vid, I had this idea for awhile, started it, and then hated it, before finally coming around to finishing it. I still feel like it's not quite the vid I had in my head, but people got the point of what I was going for so it succeeded on that level. It was such a struggle to make, a reflection of my continued vidding difficulties, brought on by pregnancy and also struggling with some deeper issues I had/am having with vidding in general, which I'll talk about below.
Say Hey (I Love You) (The Obamas) - This vid was very easy - and fun! - to make, and I finished it long before WIFL but had to sit on it for months because it was made for Club Vivid. I foisted it on anyone who came within viewing range, though. Hee. This vid was a real treat for me in response, too. I was so happy to hear it played well live; I only wish I could have been there to see it!
Overall Thoughts - Last year I talked about how I was dealing with my own vidding insecurities, and this year I got completely stoppered up by that, as well as all of the emotional and physical changes I was going through with the pregnancy. I realized while talking to heresluck a couple of weeks ago that my real wall with vidding right now is that I'm terrified to try to make a vid that isn't so much marshmallow. Something that I have to put deep and meaningful thought into, something that exists in my head and is complicated to get out. Because I don't feel like I CAN make those kinds of vids anymore, and especially not at the level everyone else is. I'm not sure I feel like I ever made those kinds of vids. As I said in the Poor Me Meme: I feel like my best days are way way way behind me. But I have some really good vid ideas, so I need to gird my vidder loins and just jump in and try to make one of them, rather than eating myself alive with the endless cycle of not having much time to vid, so using it for easy, lightweight vids, and then never feeling like I'm any good at vidding because I never try anything difficult anymore. And if I fail, I fail, but I need to try. I want to be a good role model for Puplet, at least! (Remind me of this when I'm whining this year, okay?)
My favorite of my own vids this year:
Say Hey, definitely.
My best vid this year:
Also Say Hey!
Vid of mine most underappreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
Eh. I think all of my vids were appreciated the amount they should have been this year.
Most fun video:
Tough call between Chances Are and Say Hey.
Video with single sexiest moment:
Um. Probably What It Feels Like, though I'm not sure.
Hardest video to make:
What It Feels Like.
Most unintentionally *telling* video:
Say Hey, I think. The other two were intentionally telling.
Do you have any goals for the New Year?
My New Year's Vidding Resolution is to get over my insecurity and vid already. And the crazy thing is, is that I'm looking forward to doing just that. My festivids vid is actually a step in that direction, and just trying something a little more complex has reminded me how much fun I do find it, even when it's impossibly difficult. So I'm excited about what the future holds in vidding terms this year, for the first time in a couple of years.
For concrete goals, I will finish and post my festivids vid, finish the ds-recsredux vidlet for thady I promised *cough*twoyearsago*cough* (omg I am so lame), and this is the year of a Wire vid or bust! (Props to my Wire Vidding Cabal. *g*) I also have this OC vid that's been eating at me, but I am not committing myself to that right now. I'd LOVE to have something for VVC Premieres this year, but we'll see. My vidding time is so hard to come by.
I didn't write any fic at all this year, though I posted what I have of my Prison Break Apocafic AU. I will get back to that someday. I hope.
If you have any specific questions about any of these vids, feel free to ask! As always, many, many, many thanks and gratitude to my betas and also to all the people who took the time to leave a comment on my work. It's worth repeating, as it is every year: for the people who say they "only" comment and don't produce much or anything - you all are doing a huge service for fandom. Thank you.