So i have finally started school. today was my first day of classes. i also had symphony band auditions today. that sucked. i was not nerves at all and then right before cause i was listening to ashley freak i all of a sudden become really nervous. i was fine at the beginning, but half way through i sucked it up. the sight reading was so terribly ( Read more... )

today i am leaving for college for the first time. it is only band camp, but this is the beginning of everything new. i am very excited. i am going to miss everyone and i hope i will be missed.

don't shut me out...i do understand

i back at the point where i'm ready to go now. my father is being anal about everything and exploding all over me. last night i was at steven's at the car died. so i was late getting home and now he has to fix it so it will at least run until mom can put it in the shop. and its not like he is helping to pay for anything for me so more money that we ( Read more... )

one week from today...a new life for me

loving someone is the easiest thing to do, 
but at the same time one of the hardest things to hold on to.

i have been awake since 6:40 this morning and i don't have to be anywhere until after lunch. this makes me sad. i layed on the couch to see if i would go back to sleep while watching TV, but i didn't. so it is going to be a very long day for me. cause again...i have to close tonight.

why can't i just get what i want and everyone be happy. its not fair. yes i am whining like a 4 year old, but right now i don't care. i want things my way on this and i want everyone to be happy with my decision. two people i love the most and i can't make them both happy. how do you make a decision like that. i actually know what i will probably ( Read more... )

i realized today for the first time that i leave for college in 3 weeks. i only have 3 weekends left to do everything i want to do before i leave. that  makes me sad. there is so much i want to do, and i don't think i am going to be enough time to do it.

AP results are in...

can i scream in pain now?

Aida was amazing!!!

malachi dancing
christina belly dancing
kris kuss dancing

it all made me so happy:0 )