alive?

i think so.

maybe?

fuck it.

i never know anymore.

things this time are out in the open.

my feelings
thoughts
pride

no mutual feelings
[ not by any means ]

nothing is going to change
and it's a reality that i am facing

fuck this

fuck my feelings

fuck these thoughts

JUST FUCKING STOP

just like many other things, i had tried to keep communication with people at a minimum. but, my plan back fired and people are becoming upset with me. i did not mean to hurt them, i just am dealing with things that i thought i could handle by myself ( Read more... )

i promised myself that i wouldn't bitch anymore, but as of lately my life has gotten worse. and honestly, i can't handle this ( Read more... )

i have no idea where to start
i guess i'll start here

thanksgiving was good. the food was nice. i didn't get to see everyone, but i saw some. no one really has changed, well maybe some. but that is towards a more materialistic change. just like they were in high school, but just a little bit more than before. or maybe i have changed? nope, ( Read more... )

i`m coming home today

i'm so excited to be going home soon. a whole week to myself

no cell phone at home
no school
no stress
no nothing

i've needed this for such a long time. you have no idea.

oh, and i better see you mother fuckers when i go back home.

instead of going to class i attempted to clean my room and i read old livejournals and caledia's. weird how much things have changed. i thank god everyday that i'm not how i use to be. whatever though. i'm almost home for thanksgiving break. and you know what, i'm ready for this break. i want to sit on my ass and do nothing. ab.so.lut.ly. ( Read more... )

since i graduated high school, my life has changed ( Read more... )

HELLO PEOPLE! I'M STILL HERE!

i'll post something later.