I have been writing a journal on vampirefreaks as sometimesalways. I have been thinking about writing in this journal again for awhile now. It's a much brighter place on here than vampirefreaks. I want to be more positive about things, and things haven't been going good for me. Just had a recent medicine change today. I am now on lithium twice ( Read more... )

I want my old girlfriend back. Why? I want her back, because I thought she was amazing. She made me happy. Yes, things got dramatic. I don't know how else to put it. Do I think things will be as they were before? No. Things happen for a reason. I didn't want things to end the way that they did, but they did. Who says that loving someone ( Read more... )

In my room listening to INXS. Got the cd for five dollars at Walmart. I had to also buy new work shoes, and pants, too. Sucks that my work won't provide them for me anymore. They provide the pants, but I don't like them and they used to provide the shoes. Things haven't going great for me, but hopefully after this week things will turn around ( Read more... )

Here I am awake. I think I fell asleep around seven thirty. Didn't know I was that tired. Not much is going on, though. Worked a full day of work yesterday, and I work ten to six today, much later today. I'm nervous to see how much my pay check will be this week. I shouldn't have been leaving work early. Oh well. It's my fault really. I'm ( Read more... )

Was scheduled to work only three days next week.  Was asked to work on Sunday, and that's a good thing.  Instead of having four days off I just have three days off.  Last night was terrible.  Had periods where I felt like throwing up.  Maybe I shouldn't had taken that extra visteril.  I no longer want to leave work early again, but it is so ( Read more... )

I seriously need to get out more. Work needs to stop cutting my hours, and I let them do it. I need to stop doing that. It's getting too the point that it's frustrating me and stressing me out. I'm depressed as it is I don't need to be stressing myself out. It's bad enough that I broke up with my girlfriend. Things do not need to be like this ( Read more... )

Going to Middletown, DE tomorrow with my mom. She wants to take me to Ruby Tuesday's, and get some things done. If they aren't too expensive she is going to get me a new pair of work shoes. She called and said she wanted to go today, but I was asleep and didn't get her call. She really should have called me yesterday... It was either that or I ( Read more... )

My ex got out of the hospital.  She already came over to my place, but she didn't get out of her car.  I told her to go over to see her daughter.  I don't know if I'll be going over there tonight.  I really don't want to.  I'm tired, so I think I'll just stay home.  I went over some things with my r.s. today.  I'll write more later if I feel like

I really want to wash my clothes, but this song will have to do ( Read more... )

I see that it's time to go. Time to go to a new place in a new direction. Time to swim around in new thoughts, and to run into new beginnings. No there will be no more false hope. Dizzy, Dizzy, Dizziness. Going so fast, and spinning in the future can barely touch ground. Where did my loved on go? I see glimpses of her, but it's all a blur ( Read more... )