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If you die here, what happens? Do you go back to your own world or is that it? Do you just pop out of existence entirely?
[ Wait. She remembers being shown and told something horrible by Bellatrix. ]
Is death permanent here? Is there hope that the others could return? I'm going to miss Arthur.
[ Tonks draws back a bit. Her expression becomes ( Read more... )
[ Wait. She remembers being shown and told something horrible by Bellatrix. ]
Is death permanent here? Is there hope that the others could return? I'm going to miss Arthur.
[ Tonks draws back a bit. Her expression becomes ( Read more... )
I know it's the right thing to do. But please don't thank me.
…There's no way to lead up to it.
[again, forces himself not to wait for her to either stop him (won't happen), redirect (not fair), or spur him on (not her job: his).]
I know that Harry and Hermione and Ron and Ginny survived. You have the photograph. I know also from it that we won the war. So everyone who died… did so… in the cause they believed in… and helped to win it. We all made the better world we wanted.
But before us… that I know of…
[In his timeline he'd broken the news of Sirius to her, but never these others. He'd been there with her for them, they were hit with it together and did their best to get through it together… which was terrible enough. Maybe making this harder than it needs to be. His talk about being two further years older than her is suddenly very obvious: it looks like even more than that on his face ( ... )
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Freeing one of his hands, he brushes back some of her hair]
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I'm sorry Remus... Everything is just swelling up.
[ Tonks' eyes tear up when he brushes back some of her hair. ]
You know, you were the first to do that. Before, I had just scene people do that to girls. I always hoped someone would look at me like that.
[ She still has a tight hold on his hand. Her breathing is still deep and quick. Tonks' heartbeat still beats quick but she is getting through the moment.
It's a good memory of Anatole and Tonks has precious few of those.]
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And he smiles.
Enough catharsis for the moment. She'd had to lighten his heavy thoughts so often, he'd picked up something of it.]
The first? In your original timeline? How is that possible?
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(( OOC: That is one of the nicest things anyone's every said to me... ::wibble:: ))
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Or, as with most of this, only his own problem. hadn't wanted to influence unduly - not deliberately. When it's undeliberate isn't it the same as the natural process - and leave some credit and agency to her
And then, occasionally, a bit of truth will strike him forcefully enough, like a diamond flash in the brain, that it shakes off all the rest. Shows with laughing clarity why they're so tangled and muddy: they're irrelevant.]
I've been thinking so much about the past and the future with you. Not nearly enough on the present.
[ceremonially offers his hand]
Care to join me in the present? …Maybe doing something… [a smile with the faint spark of the 16 year-old; if self-aware that it was coming from the 40 year-old] …for fun?
[ooc: I speak nothing but the truth. Thankfully not the whole truth or we'd be here all year.]
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[ She still doesn't know what had possessed her to be so forward with Remus. Dora hadn't known him. She'd just been attracted t him. With the younger children, she hadn't been mean, just a bit bossy. Obnoxiousness just runs in the family, the good side that is.
Without thinking about it, Tonks places her hand in his. Their fingers fit so nicely together. ]
Fun, Remus?
[ Tonks tilts her head to the side and surveys him. There is more than just a slight hint of mischief in her eyes. She smiles and squeezes his hand. ]
What d'you have in mind?
(( OOC: I am still in my jimjams... ))
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[an even brighter grin]
I was spending all my time with James and Sirius then. If you were being a brat, I honestly didn't notice.
[Because they were or had made him into one too? Who knows. Who cares. They were sixteen. Who's more understanding or forgiving of teenage behaviour than Professor Lupin.
Of course, when she takes his hand, he's not feeling even slightly professorial.]
In my mind… [third in his repertoire of entirely different smiles. I'm much further from sixteen now than you are.] …I haven't done so much as take a walk in the park or visit the book vendors in the market in a while.
[nor done much spellwork with anyone who even knew the form, given his and Hermione's focus had been on potions… but that seems close to work.
Looks around critically.]
But I think perhaps somewhere other than the Clinic would be an excellent start.
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[ She does not want him to feel like a professor. It's not that there couldn't be fun applications with that feeling, it's just now isn't the time for that. Tonks wants him to have fun. ]
Are you ill? How long has it been since you've found a new book to read?
[ While still holding his hand, she stands. Tonks attempts to pull him to his feet. ]
Come on then. You think maybe we could find something to do with chocolate while we're out?
[ A thought occurs to her, she should tell him. ]
Oh, I sort of moved out of the clinic. Shirley gave me a job but it didn't feel right to remain here. I... went back to living at my fort.
[ Being and adult, she'd fixed it up properly. She has what resembles running water and what passes for electricity. It's still a hodgepodge of found items but at least there's a living purpose in mind. It's not just about fun. ]I didn't have any place else to go and since ( ... )
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[decides not to tell her how many books he's already accumulated that he hasn't read through yet. (…At some point he can show her?)
Lets her pull him upright and keeps hold of her hand as they begin to walk.
'Something to do with…' Oh, shut up, Sirius.] Yes, I think that can be managed.
[the news makes him pause in his steps again and turn to face her.]
I didn't know you'd… [That anything would escape his notice at the clinic is a bit alarming, but especially-no, it would only be her. His dismay is overshadowed by his smile. The congratulations is a little on behalf of having been her medic, an excellent step in recovery, but not all by half.] That's wonderful. Having your own place. Well done.
It'll be good to have you back at the clinic only on your own terms.
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I could try to drag others into trouble with me. We don't have to get caught though. It's the possibility of getting caught that makes it fun.
[ She links her arm through his. It's easier to walk that way. ]
Good. I could do with something sweet right about now.
[ At least she's not suggesting chocolate body paint. That will come later, much later. ]
You didn't know? Oh, well... I just... Didn't feel right to take up that room and resources. I didn't know where else to go so in the meantime the fort'll do, you know? I still have work to do with it. It's a bit run down. I don't even know if anyone owns it properly.
[ Tonks is rambling a bit. She can't stop herself. ]
You could should visit me any time you like. I'd like that.
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