San Francisco trip: I had this idea I was going to finish blogging about the San Francisco trip. Events (and my own laziness) have conspired against me and I have not done so. I'm afraid that a lot of trip detail has been lost in the days intervening between today and my homecoming. I am disappointed with myself in this omission.
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(BT, didn't do that and regretted it)
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I've found in the last couple years that on the rare occasions when I do something binge-y, it's an isolated incident, and the more I let it just be that, and don't respond by imposing deprivation of any kind afterwards, the better it goes. Suggest focusing on how you were feeling and how you might feel better, rather than on the eating behavior. Also, as I learned in the last few months of high anxiety, that some times you're not going to feel better right away, but it's a source of self-esteem to keep on showing up for myself as much as I can even if I feel like crap and even if I'm not thrilled with how often and how much I may eat.
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Glad you're doing at least well enough to write about it.
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That has been my experience as well. For me, it's a question of feeling the press of time. There are a lot of things I wanted in this life that I never got. Of course, as long as I'm alive some of them are still possible. But I find it harder and harder to let things just go. At this point, staying on the proper side of the dirt is a regular challenge; that's why the meds are so important. There are a number of things that keep me here, not the least of which is the idea that my brother would have to explain to my niece why I'm not. Neither of them would ever forgive me for punching my own ticket.
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By so many measures, my life has never been as good as it is now; although my body has begun to sag, my improvments in mental health more than make up for it in my ability to enjoy things.
But if everything is so good, why do I feel so hideous? Of course, I'm not the first person to ask that, nor would the answer take me by surprise.
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