I don't know how else I can do it: I've talked, I've asked, I've cried, I've screamed.. how am I supposed to get the help that I need?

First and foremost, I want to admit to that I change my mind a lot . Often what I think one second, I won't exactly agree with the next. But for now, this is what I think ( Read more... )

I set my alarm for 10AM this morning, and I didn't wake up until shortly after 12. I got up and ready for my day.. only to find out what I was getting ready for was NOTHING. Kurt came to get me, I sat uncomfortably outside of Starbucks for 20 minutes, after an uncomfortable experience inside of Starbucks, in which I had to go on my own because Kurt ( Read more... )

This year. Is this year going to exist to me after it ends? 2005 seems so dated. Although it is just now almost drawing to a close, it seems like I've been waiting for it to end for awhile now. I don't know why. But it makes me sad.

The optimistic side of me says that we should all do things for each other and all will be well ( Read more... )

Sorry to update again, but I could kill myself today. I mean I won't, I'm not that gutsy (anymore), but I want to.

I started crying so badly when I read this. Imagine someone you love being killed in a situation like that. You see them that morning, that afternoon maybe and everything is normal, or maybe you had a fight even.. and later they don't ( Read more... )

I need speakers for my computer. I need new clothes, a haircut, a tan and a mani & pedicure. I need a car. I need my permit and license. I need a job. I need the desire (oh, and the ability) to communicate with people other than Kurt ( Read more... )

You know, I strive to be as much like my mother as possible. I can't seem to get quite as tough as she was, though. She can keep up with the boys better than I can keep up with the boys. I can outsmoke a guy, I can outdrink a guy, I just don't know that I really want to. I would rather spend the day at the beach, go out to dinner and/or a bar, and ( Read more... )