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sawanai

Day 80 - And here I am left in silence

Nov 06, 2008 13:58

I'm not doing a sheet today. I think what I need to write is a bit more important than the same boring things over and over again.

[OOC: Some self-harm descriptors and talk about suicide and other trauma below the cut. Critique on just the writing is appreciated.]
( Filtered to people Hisoka trusts )

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[Private] sawanai November 6 2008, 21:08:26 UTC

Thanks for reading the whole thing. I think writing it helped, but if I need to talk more about some of the last things, I might look for you.

OOC noeyebrows101 November 7 2008, 08:28:35 UTC

That was very good. Lovely~ <33 I hope to see more.
Sorry I couldn't reply earlier, I was in the middle of a log on another roleplay. D:

Screened to Hisoka hitsuzenwoman November 7 2008, 23:49:35 UTC

*A few hours after this post came up.*

It's a bit burnt, but I found it, Hisoka. You can still read the words.

Screened to Yuuko sawanai November 7 2008, 23:57:13 UTC

Thank you, Yuuko-san. I'll put it somewhere safer the next time we meet.

Re: Screened to Yuuko hitsuzenwoman November 8 2008, 00:25:21 UTC

Good.

Hisoka...

My insanity...in all honesty, if I wished to leave this place, I easily could. I know what is my 'insanity.' I just never chose to leave.

Screened to Yuuko sawanai November 8 2008, 00:35:35 UTC

If you like it here, don't leave just because I want to try to be normal for once.

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Private doctor_lazy November 9 2008, 10:45:53 UTC

Hisoka...

I ... I'm sorry for what I said before. I didn't mean to make you upset, and leading on to all these thoughts... Though I suppose it's a good thing you've got it off your chest now.

Nightmares are common to have when suffering with your symptoms. I will admit, they aren't easy to wittle away, but I will talk to your doctor to see if it'll be possible to prescribe some medication to try and prevent anymore nightmares from occuring.

As for your parents, you seem to have an enormous build up of abuse and post-traumatic stress. I know you probably don't trust me as much as your friends, but I'd like for you to talk about it to me, to see where we can go from there for when you are emotionally stable again. Going back to them doesn't seem like the relative option, especially under the circumstances that they have abused you.

I have a pup in my room. He's really good for comfort and loves to be petted. If it'll help you feel a little better, you can play with him for a couple of days. He's very friendly.

Private sawanai November 9 2008, 19:52:29 UTC

Sakura-san has me on something and it helps when I remember to take it. But I've forgotten lately because of the fire and how stressed I was yesterday. I won't forget anymore.

I'm no longer in the care of my parents. After they tried to leave me at a clinic in Japan run by the man who attacked me, I was left in the care of a man named Seiichiro Tatsumi. He is only a temporary guardian, but he's very protective of me and I'm sure he'd like to speak to you at some point.

The only animals I've ever been around are the ones in therapy...maybe I'll visit yours when I feel up to it.