I'm exhausted. It's been a long week at work, so this will be simple. After a 3 month break, MJ and I are together again. He's in Portland and I'm in KC, but when we first got together, we were apart and this time, we have years of history, and my desire to be back in the NW behind us. I've missed him, but in retrospect, despite him saying this was ( Read more... )

I've had a few people asking if today has been particularly rough, with me being newly single and all. In all honestly, other than getting a text from him wishing me a happy one and him posting on Facebook about "Picture of You" (the song he proposed to me at The Cure show and then sang to me at karaoke the next night), I haven't thought a lot ( Read more... )

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So, from my random, sporadic postings on here and elsewhere, it isn't much of a secret that it's been a chaotic few months for me. Between the break up with Michael and him moving out, to job hunting, getting myself back into school, and some big financial issues, it's been a bitch and a half. While I initially had a pretty rough go of things right ( Read more... )

I have a job interview with United Missouri Bank in 2 hours. I can't recall the last time I was this nervous. I've done tons of interview before, but never anything quite this corporate. I had the initial phone interview last week, but this is my first face to face with them. I'm never good at selling myself. The position I am going for is ( Read more... )

It is amazing, while painful, how freeing clarity can be...

Am I not understanding some basic rule of being gay? Am I defective? I have had so many people in the last few days in utter awe of the fact that I'm not dating anyone, out looking, or interested. From the "why not" to the attitude I get when I turn down a date, I'm completely gobsmacked ( Read more... )

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Why is it that when guys find out about my current situation, they assume that it is open season? Because I've been separated from a 5+ year relationship for 3 weeks, I'm ready to date or start screwing my brains out? I'm not mad, just kind of amused by it. Does this happen to straight people??