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[sardonicviolet]

God, some times I fucking hate myself.

I didn't go to the funeral. I couldn't. I can't. There's just no way. I can't handle listening to his grandmother bawling, wailing like that. I can't stand to see his dead body again. I've seen it once already-- why torture myself? why make it worse? I'd rather just move on, please. Bury it away so it can

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[bennyboi85]

all of what you said makes sense to me amanda, my mind is right there with yours. it knows what you're dealing with on some level, buts yours is fresher for the moment. my mind has been in the haze that yours has. i can't wait to see you though, i miss you like crazy. you know i love you! pete says hi too,~m

[x_anomie_x]

no way is my amanda a coward. you are one of the strongest, bravest girls i know. and i love you more for it.

i miss you :(