jonathan brandis killed himself. almost two weeks ago. and i'm just now finding out. i loved him when i was younger. i have to go to my room and let this sink in. and sort it out. and probably cry. he was my first big celeb crush. ::sigh:: it's just not fair sometimes, ya know? maybe i'll go buy 'ladybugs' this week.

::sigh:: this just

the entire, complete, whole world is against me and the thought of a cigarette has never tasted to so good. let me list them ( Read more... )

she doesn't want me to move out so i'll just stay in thie hell-hole for fucking ever. living here makes me miserable, but my mom doesn't like my choice of roommates so she doesn't want to talk about it. i try to make her and she asks me why we have to talk about it everyday. i told her the only reason i bug her about it everday is because she ( Read more... )

it smells like rain outside and i'm glad. it takes my mind off how depressed i am and how much i hate living here. and getting out of this house is my number one priority. new york is the place i want to be; where i feel like i can find myself and get fully away from my family. but if i did get to new york, i'd still have an attachment to my ( Read more... )

i made a mix CD (does it live up to the mix tape? i dunno...) and asked some people for help. i never got any help. and i'm kinda glad. i told people that i twas kind of a love-lorn mix. and i think if i had gotten suggesions, i would've gotten songs that made me sad. so i put my own mix together. and the songs i put together don't make me ( Read more... )

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Your first name of Sara has given you a quick-minded, sensitive nature. It gives you a creative ability in art, music, singing, or fancywork and an appreciation for refined surroundings. Your sociable nature expresses affection, kindness, and thoughtfulness to the extent that it is difficult for you not to be affected by others and governed by your ( Read more... )

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howdy. i'm in a tailspin right now. i'm trying to put together a kind of lovelorn CD mix. kind of an unrequited- love deal. but i need some ideas for really good songs. the number one track right now is "The Fall" by weezer featuring good charlotte. i'm looking for songs that kind of fit that genre too. so, if you've got some ideas, send ( Read more... )

boy. maybe life just doesn't like me. maybe that would explain some of the issues i have with my family, my country, men . . . that sounds james joyce-y, doesn't it ( Read more... )