every pool of water reminds me of you. is that all right?
i made a mix CD (does it live up to the mix tape? i dunno...) and asked some people for help. i never got any help. and i'm kinda glad. i told people that i twas kind of a love-lorn mix. and i think if i had gotten suggesions, i would've gotten songs that made me sad. so i put my own mix together. and the songs i put together don't make me sad at all. they actually make me happy. because they make me realize how great it is to have feelings for someone. i feel really great bout it. and he doesn't know yet, but i feel good about leading up to telling him. it's the first time that i feel like i don't need my best friend there next to me. the first time that i want to tell him myself. and it's not really telling. it's just asking to spend some time together, just hang out. and i don't care if he says he doesn't want to. i don't think it will bother me. just like asking him to hang out doesn't bother me. and i think it's because there's some kind of history there with this guy. and it's so much better to like/tell a friend over a guy whom i know nothing about. and i really want to start writing my own history with him. it kills tabi to not know who i'm talking about. maybe "kills" isn't the right word. but i like not telling everyone who i'm interested in. girls at work saw pictures of him, which i forgot i had with me, and said that we'd look good together. and i don't think they were saying it to make me feel good. i think the meant it. i didn't need them to make me feel good because i already feel good about this.