I just came back from visiting my boyfriend at work. While driving along MLK, 5 blocks before Killingsworth a car started slowing down beside me. The person honked, I looked to my right and it was ( Read more... )

how unhappily, happy I am. Now that I know I am in love, that it is real, that it will last...I want to get back to what I was doing when we started. Everyone is gone.

A year later...Sometimes, most of the time, I feel just as vulnerable. I love Him. Someday I will marry him. Someday everyone will know that we are... Someday everyone will not just be Shnitz.

Time Flys...

I said that, "I was tired"...After 4 hours of straight drinking I hope any female would be. I said this b/c you looked tired not b/c I should be. I felt fine since I slept the last fifty so hours away. You said, "I am hot"! I asked if a t-shirt would help you cool down and drink more (you were wearing a shirt and tie). You agreed, came into my ( Read more... )

I was thinking today about how worried I was when she left, when he left...I was surprised when I looked around, alone, and was happy. I want to think that I have changed a little bit in the last two months. I have definately learned tremendous amounts out about sex (not that I have really had any), men, and sex with men. I have stayed pretty ( Read more... )

I will be up in Seattle on Monday. I have no where to stay. I don't know how I am going to get to the airport. I think it is going to be a hotel night in Seattle. I will be there all day Monday though so call me dear, we should hang out. I will have no more internet after...now.

Tomorrow Kirsten leaves. I don't really know how I feel about it yet. There has been way too much going on socially to process the thought. I will see her in three weeks when I leave as well. I will get off the school bus and be happy. I will get on the school bus and be very sad ( Read more... )

I don't even feel like laughing anymore. I have taken all this anger and rejection he gave me and twisted it around into my own sick little world. I am right and everyone else is wrong. I shouldn't drink because it makes me a hell of a lot worse. Hopefully this weekend will be mellow...

So now that he is gone I want to go. Not far, not for long...I guess there is no reason to stay. He left me, my wife is leaving me. Next thing I know my Schnitty will have left me for another girl or for another state. I am not sad though. Sometimes I want to lash out irrationally. I don't know anything except that I have to work tomorrow...