Crimson touch
Passion embrace
Lost inside the moment

When you admit to someone for whom you have feelings that you have done something to disrespect their trust. I would hope you would feel miserable. I recently did just that admit one of my sins. Not only did I think the skin should have been fillet off my still breathing body but that I should be packed in salt and dropped in a huge vat of alcohol ( Read more... )

This was my horoscope for yesterday the last part didn't make sense but fuck it does now.

A pleasure trip
Valid during several weeks: This would be a good time to see an art exhibit that challenges your preconceived views about what is beautiful. Probably this will be entertaining rather than unsettling, and you will experience something new. Or ( Read more... )

Today marks one of the last days at the OA. I heard from Jen that there are rumors going around that TC and I are fighting over her. SHe heard this crap from Ronnie. Which Im sure she heard it from Yolee who Im guessing heard it from Suzanna. Im going to have a talk with her tomorrow and I'm not terribly happy about it. I wish they would all do ( Read more... )

Well I'm not dead yet thought it feels like it. Today and yesterday have neither one been worth a shit. I now get to see less of Jen than I did before which in all honesty wasn't a hell of a lot. She is still turning out so great stuff, but she works days and Im stuck here at night. At least when I was working in the computer room I could wander ( Read more... )

well I woke up feeling like shit. I can't call in there is no one to cover so that means I get to suffer. Yea!! Of course it would this week of all weeks. Fuckers!!

Ok I told Jen I was going to bed but I need to finish this up then I will be off to dreamland. I talked to Jen yesterday till 3am almost 4. She had to be up to go to work at 9am (so I thought). So since I wasn't tired I drove over to her place to see that she went to work on time. That was all the reasons I had at the time. THen I got there and I ( Read more... )

I do not know what Im doing when it comes to Jen. I am just going with my heart. I wrote a poem about her yesterday morning then bought a card to write it in so I could give it to her. I don't think it was crazy to write from the heart. I don't think it is too much to tell someone the truth. I am living for each moment. If something happens that ( Read more... )

Well goddamn been fighting back tears all day. Just can't seem to get my head right. For those of you that know me I blame the fact I quit smoking. I mean christ for lunch I'm eating rice and turkey. I hate rice. I hate rice, but it is important to lose about 40 pounds. The gym is the place I'm heading tomorrow. I'm going to sign up. I figure 40 ( Read more... )

Been sitting here thinking about anything I can. I'm eat up with it. I can't hold a real thought for more than a few minutes. Not a good sign. Every time I think Im going to go back to be my negative self I fall into my silly self. Tomorrow it will be 2 weeks since I stopped smoking and drinking a lot of caffeine. I don't want to smoke I am tired ( Read more... )