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Been sitting here thinking about anything I can. I'm eat up with it. I can't hold a real thought for more than a few minutes. Not a good sign. Every time I think Im going to go back to be my negative self I fall into my silly self. Tomorrow it will be 2 weeks since I stopped smoking and drinking a lot of caffeine. I don't want to smoke I am tired of holding the world at bay with my anger and the flaming barrier. God I lost my train of thought. It's sad when the anger turns to laughter and then tears and back to silliness. I think everyone knows my thoughts, but jesus do they ever stop?!