Never Say Never 11/?
Pairing/s Sam/Kurt friendship, actual relationship eventually, any canon couple can be mentioned
Rating: PG
Spoiler/s: All of season 2 that's aired currently
Summary: As the bullying gets worse, Sam notices and an odd friendship is formed.
Chapter Summary: Christmas Eve is very eventful.
Previous chapters:
Chapter 10: http://community.livejournal.com/samkurt/175696.html
Chapter 9: http://community.livejournal.com/samkurt/171142.html
Chapter 8: http://community.livejournal.com/samkurt/166402.html
Chapter 7: http://community.livejournal.com/samkurt/160830.html
Chapter 6: http://community.livejournal.com/samkurt/157276.html
Chapter 5: http://community.livejournal.com/samkurt/153881.html
Chapter 4: http://community.livejournal.com/samkurt/1 41085.html
Chapter 3: http://community.livejournal.com/samkurt/137853.html
Chapter 2: http://community.livejournal.com/samkurt/1 34481.html#cutid1
Chapter 1: http://community.livejournal.com/samkurt/1 31098.html#cutid1
Author's Notes: Im unsure about this chapter but it kind of needs to happen for other things to happen and so its stayed!
Chapter 11
Christmas Eve came around a week later. Finn and Kurt waved off Burt and Carole as they went out for dinner.
“So what are you wearing to Mr Schue’s?” Finn asked conversationally.
“I’m not coming” Kurt told him.
“Dude! Why not?”
“I just...don’t feel like it” Kurt lied, not being able to admit the real reason to Finn that he would rather be alone on Christmas Eve than be around Sam and Quinn.
“That’s a lousy excuse” Finn commented. “You shouldn’t be on your own - it’s Christmas!”
“I’ll be fine” Kurt assured him. And I won’t have to watch Quinn and Sam being all couply all night he added silently.
Finn still dithered. “Are you sure?”
“Positive, now go”
“I won’t be back too late, I swear” Finn promised him as he left.
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“What’s wrong? You seem down” Quinn said as she sat next to Sam in a corner at Mr Schue’s house.
“I’m fine”
“I don’t believe you” Quinn told him matter of factly. “You look like Finn did when he fell in love with the dwarf last year and-oh no please tell me you’re not after her too!”
“What, Rachel? No!”
“Well thank goodness for that at least. But there is someone, right?”
“Yeah actually” Sam admitted. “Nothing’s happened I swear, I wouldn’t do that to you an- you don’t look upset” he broke off as Quinn smiled.
“I know. I should be furious but I’m not. Honestly, I think I only agreed to date you because you are the next in line to be quarterback. And of course you are the cutest guy in school. It was good for my popularity. But I probably shouldn’t have used you like that so I’m sorry”
“Don’t be. I think I was with you for similar reasons, well apart from you’re the head cheerio not on the football team”
“Right. Well-“
“I would love to still be friends though. I really like and admire you. What do you think?”
“Friends sounds good” Quinn conceded as Finn arrived. “Hey Finn” she said cheerfully. “Where’s Kurt?”
“He’s not coming, doesn’t feel like it apparently”
“So you left him on his own? On Christmas Eve?” Sam questioned, annoyance colouring his tone.
“Well yeah. He told me to!” Finn said in his defence.
“You’re the one who said no one should be alone!” Sam protested loudly.
“Shh guys, he’s coming” Mercedes warned.
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Sam made it through 26 minutes before making his excuses.
“Dude, where are you going?” Finn questioned from where he was talking with Quinn.
“I just need to get home” Sam told them. “Merry Christmas” he added before making a quick exit.
“He’s going to see Kurt isn’t he?” Finn asked rhetorically and resignedly.
“Oh my god he is” Quinn commented, hand flying to her mouth as she thought of something. “Kurt!”
“What about him?”
“Sam likes someone else...”
“No” Finn said disbelievingly. “No, he’s straight. It must be someone else he likes”
“Who?” Quinn asked. “Finn everyone else is here. And I mean we just split up, surely the next logical step would be to see the person he likes”
“He’s not gay...”
“Are you sure about that?”
“Well I was five minutes ago!”
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“Wow Finn I know you said you wouldn’t be late but this is a bit extreme, you could at least have remembered your keys” Kurt muttered on his way to answer the door.
“Sam!” he said in surprise. “What are you doing here?”
“No one should spend Christmas Eve alone” Sam said simply, walking in.
“Shouldn’t you be spending it with your girlfriend?”
“We split up”
“Oh! I’m sorry” Kurt said as internally he started having a party.
“It’s ok, it was amicable”
“Why?”
“We both realized we were in the relationship for the wrong reasons”
“Finally! I-“
“No one likes someone who says ‘I told you so’” Sam warned.
”Right. So how did you want to spend the evening then?”
“I was thinking we could order food in and watch a movie or something” Sam answered, figuring that was a safer answer than ‘kissing you senseless’.
“Sounds good. I have Chinese menus and It’s a Wonderful Life?”
“That’ll do”
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“Are you crying?!” Sam asked as the credits rolled.
“No” Kurt denied tearfully before catching Sam’s disbelieving look. “Well, not much” he amended. “It’s emotional! He thinks everyone’s lives would be better without him only to be shown the opposite-“
“Sounds familiar” Sam commented pointedly.
“Yeah well you can’t judge anyway! I saw you crying in the cinema when Dobby died and he’s not even human!”
“That-he was Dobby! He was awesome! Trust me it will be a lot worse when I drag you to see part two” Kurt rolled his eyes. “And for the record, New Directions aren’t better off without you”
“Uh huh”
“Seriously, you were gone a week before everyone started fighting! It was weird - I think it’s why Finn has been pushing the Christmas thing so much, it’s a good distraction”
“I’m so amazing everything falls apart without me obviously”
“Totally. So you’ll have to come back”
“Sam...not this again” Kurt told him, collecting and taking their plates to the kitchen.
“Yeah this again. I mean are you really happy at Dalton?” Sam questioned, following Kurt.
“I’m safe”
“Safe doesn’t equal being happy”
“Well you would know, you’ve done nothing but play it safe since you moved here!”
“Have you noticed you always bring that up when you’re trying to avoid a subject?” Sam pointed out. “You know I thought we were at the point where we could actually be honest with each other, guess I was wrong”
Kurt whirled around to face Sam. “You want the truth? Fine. I’m unhappy, Blaine is great but most people there manage to make me feel inferior without even trying, I’m basically invisible most of the time and I’m losing the ONE thing I swore bullies would never take from me, my individuality and yet despite all this I can’t come back to being terrified every day. So basically I have the choice of staying in the frying pan or jumping back into the fire! Oh and being there means I’m getting more and more isolated from my friends, making me even more lonely than I was. There, does knowing all that make you feel any better?!”
Sam stood there stunned into silent for a moment while Kurt calmed down. “Kurt, you’ve got to come back. I know you’re scared but Dalton isn’t healthy for you, obviously! You have Blaine there; here you’ll have the whole of New Directions! You’re not a damn bird in a cage like that poor pretentious Warbler Kurt, you should be free to show your individuality, especially when it’s one of the very best things about you”
“I just c-“
“Look, you know you asked me the first weekend we hung out about how I felt about transferring?”
“I cannot believe you remember that”
“I’m full of surprises. I said I was happy but I was wrong. Because, they won. The people who made my life a living hell every day won by driving me away, and they’ll go on doing that to any kid who dares to be different, knowing that it worked once. I I let them win there, and they’re still winning here. I haven’t been open about who I am because I’m so scared, I’m still letting them have control over me. I’ve been playing a part with Quinn, I wasn’t me. You have to come back Kurt because you’ll be miserable if you don’t. And I’ll be miserable if I let you stay somewhere so wrong for you”
Kurt opened his mouth to answer but was interrupted by Finn barrelling his way into the kitchen.
“Kurt!” he said happily, throwing his arms around the smaller boy.
“Um, hi” Kurt replied awkwardly as Finn’s breath hit him. “Have you been drinking?”
“Bit” Finn mumbled. Went to Puck’s when Schue kicked us out”
“Brilliant. Sam, some help here?”
“Right” Sam said, rushing to help prise Finn off Kurt and onto the sofa.
“Sam!!! Why are you here?” Finn asked, confused.
“Just came to see Kurt” Sam smiled, turning back to Kurt. “My curfew is in ten minutes, are you going to be ok with Finn if I go?”
“Go for it, we’ll be fine. See you soon”
“Of course. Sorry about this, just my mum will freak-“ Sam rambled, kicking himself mentally as he did so.
“Just go, it’ fine” Kurt assured him, waiting until he heard the front door slam before turning to Finn. “Why did you drink so much?!” Kurt demanded of Finn who was lolling back on the sofa.
“Rachel” Finn mumbled.
“Of course it was” Kurt sighed. “Right, are you going to be able to get to the basement if I help you?” Kurt asked, taking Finn’s hands and heaving him into an upright position.
Once on his feet Finn wobbled precariously.
“Woah cowboy, I’ve got you” Kurt assured, draping Finn’s arm around his shoulder as they started moving towards the door.
“You know girls really are your problem” Kurt pointed out as they negotiated the stairs awkwardly.
Finn nodded forlornly. “But I have you” he said hopefully.
“Of course you do” Kurt assured. “And we’re down the stairs!” he finished triumphantly.
“We are!” Finn agreed happily, tugging Kurt around to face him. “You’re always helping me” he stated.
“What are brothers for?” Kurt smiled.
“Even before” Finn continued. “Even when I was horrible to you and - wow you have pretty eyes.”
“Uh huh” Kurt said, suppressing his laughter. “Finn were there drugs at Puck’s house too?” he questioned lightly before feeling Finn’s lips crash against his.
Kurt reacted instantly as an image of Karofsky flashed across his head, using all his strength he pushed the older boy away forcefully, before grabbing Finns arm to steady him as he went to fall over. “WHAT THE HELL?!” he yelled angrily.
“Oh God, Kurt I-“ Finn began, reaching out but pausing as the small part of his brain that was still working registered Kurt’s flinch. “You’re scared” he said slowly, his drunk mind trying to process this information. “What’s happened to you?”
“Nothing” Kurt brushed off. “We’ll talk in the morning ok? Lets just get you into bed”
“M’sorry” Finn mumbled as Kurt helped him across the room. “Really really sorry”
“It’s ok Finn, you’re drunk” Kurt replied. “Trust me you are so going to freak about this in the morning”
“M’still sorry. Your boyfriend’s going to kill me”
“I’m sure my invisible boyfriend will be very understanding” Kurt smiled, going back towards his own bed.
“Sam’s not invisible” Finn said, confusion filling his tone.
“He’s not my boyfriend either” Kurt told him.
Finn nodded enthusiastically. “He is, we decided! He loooves you”
Kurt blinked. “Who decided exactly?”
“Me, Quinn, ‘Cedes, Artie, Tina , Mike”
“O...k we are also going to be talking about this in the morning” Kurt told him before realizing Finn was already asleep. Kurt sighed and hoped that Finn wouldn’t remember all this in the morning, he wasn’t sure how exactly he was going to explain about Karofsky and exactly how bad things had gotten.