3-11-05 to 3-23-05

[sacredsilence16]

3-11-05 (12:10 a.m. 3-12-05)

Well, I throw myself to the whim of  another, again. Ashley and I went out today. She called me and we arranged to go see. “The Pacifier” with Vin Diesel. It was, let me say, a lot of fun. I didn’t, to be honest, have much faith in anything happening between us two. I really just wanted to go out with her

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[iluvmksbf452]

Yeah, that pretty much pissed me off when you told me not to say anything. It made me feel like some "typical prep" that just tells everyone their stuff. Actually, I'm trustworthy and honestly it f*cking pissed me off. If you think that I was gonna "blab" all over school, well you got that wrong, because I kept my mouth shut, even though I was mad to a point I would've told people.

[sacredsilence16]

Calm down Rocio

I warned you at the beginning of this set of posts that it was dangerous to make assumptions. I never thought you would intentional create the prep drama that you speak of. It was more one of those "let you know moments" so that you would know what was going on. I thought that you would be excited that I had a new girlfriend and I just needed some time to sort it all out first. I figured that if i didn't say anything that you would assume it was no secret at the time. Hence no reason not to talk about it.

So, I am sorry if i made you out to be the bad guy when really I was seeking the help of a friend. I love you Rocio!

[iluvmksbf452]

I was happy, Tommy. Surprised, but happy knowing the fact that everyone was happy. And I didn't make assumptions...what the hell do you expect me to think when I read this?

"...but I had to be careful and tell Rocio not to blab all over the school that I had a new girlfriend"

Blab all over the school? Why were you specfically telling me? Why not Allison or David and they were witnesses? Why just me? That's what pissed me off.

[iluvmksbf452]

Yes, I'm probably overreacting, but really...put yourself in my shoes and just think what I though.

[sacredsilence16]

Allison is quiet. David doesn't go to YC anymore. You knew Mikaila. I wrote this a while ago and I only meant that you might let everyone know if you didn't think it was on the down low. I have no doubts you are honest and trustworthy. Never doubted for a second and, consequentailly, you didn't say anything. If you remember too, i apologized during theology for putting you in that position the Monday afterward.

I'm really sorry if I made you mad.

[turbogeekers]

well this kinda goes towards me too. I didnt find out from Rocio but from another source..problem is i dont remeber who it was but when i heard about it i was happy for you! I was like, what you and ashley have..is what Will and I have. I have known him now for about 2 months but it feels like ive known him forever. So it was like fate stepped in for the both of us and said.."you two arent gonna be but here are two lovely people that will be wonderful with you." I truly wanted to know more about her. That is why i have been trying to talk to you...just trying to catch up with your lfie because i feel like your disappreaed forever and i felt sad that there was still that awkwardness between us. She sounds great for you. Will thought you were a great guy and all. But yeah....i swear for a while this monring i got really into your lj and like katy was like whatcha doing? i was like reading tommy's lj! yay! hehe but yeah....i am happier knowing you are happy. I love you tommy! ^_^

[sacredsilence16]

Thank you Julia. I feel the same way. Sorry I wasn't talking to you. I just needed some time. I know that this is the best for both of us. You know, Mariel's right.....we could write a book on all of this craziness.....I love you too!

[turbogeekers]

hehe i feel better *hugs*

i still cant wait to meet her! ^_^ you've met my william! hehe

[turbogeekers]

oh and i havent given you the proper hello!

Welcome back to lj tommy!!! ^_^

[minikoala]

you lied? that hurts.. i understand it was with good intentions, but still. I want the truth more than a lie to make me feel good, cuz you know that the lie will just put the pain in waiting, not get rid of it totally.