Comments | ryther: after such a long time..

ryther

after such a long time..

May 15, 2008 01:14

How long have I abandoned LJ? I'm so sorry...I've been well and occupied in tonnes of things...and I'm not over all these things yet, just realized it is getting worser instead.

Oh well, like I've said in my head, things either get worse or it turns out for the better.

I think I want to spill it here. I've tried to write it down here a couple of ( Read more... )

tsubasa's niece, rambles

Comments 9

kazu_kumaguro May 14 2008, 19:25:34 UTC

are you sure it's not... just misinpretetation?

Good luck but running to fandom is not the real way out :(
though actually currently I'm kinda like this too.

ryther May 14 2008, 20:42:26 UTC

misinterpretation of what really? coz i really don't believe in relationship before marriage and so far, i've never felt like this...i'm just so blurred by all the things that i'm going through to know whether it's just a crush or a one-sided like feelings..

kazu_kumaguro May 14 2008, 20:54:59 UTC

I see, I just worry if you misread your feeling.
sorry for asking like this :(

ryther May 15 2008, 01:23:45 UTC

aah~ i'm sorry~ it's really my problem and I never thought that maybe i misinterpret my own feelings >< don't apologies m(___)m

tamegorou May 15 2008, 02:04:38 UTC

sorry for butting in or whatsoever.. i know i'm not in the right position to tell you anything, but ne, in my own opinion, i think it was the right thing that you told him about your real feelings. i mean, it's better that at least you have thrown one burden down than feel sorry for not having the chance of not telling how you really feel. hmm, just have the courage to face what may be ahead of you.. and who knows, you too just might end up happily together.. hmm, and these things going inside your mind,like relationship before marriage, you really cannot tell that you can stand up to such since things just go on different courses as life goes on..something like that. how do i say this, it's like telling a friend that you're really not into public display of affection but once you get into a relationship, you really cannot tell if you could still stick to your words. lalalala am i still making sense?!XD but ne, whatever happens, have the courage! and just like what Tarina said, fandom may be an escape to reality but reality always ( ... )

katya_alex May 15 2008, 09:45:59 UTC

im glad to read an update from you.

I like this kind of post which will gives me an idea on your personality again.

Im not in relationship and i was never in a relationship. and honestly, i dont want to rush my self. Harharhar! i can say that i love being single though i welcome the thought of having my own family in the future.

sometimes, i think, i cant handle relationship with the opposite sex (if more than friends). i may just be a nice thought. but in reality, i think, he we lose his patience with me. i have too many priorities. harharhar!

i miss you, dear.

ryther May 18 2008, 11:43:47 UTC

Katya, I miss you too~!

I guess sometimes resorting to friends whom you cannot meet everyday is a good way. I really need to let it out somewhere so in the end it's here since here I have all my LJFriends like you~

I think I'll turn to someone who isn't me if I am with him or even anyone for that matter...I'm indeed okay if I didn't see him the other (it is pure accidental) or when he started to send messages saying he missed me (which is also a surprise)...oh well, I just hope I don't lose my cool around him..I know I'm okay just by myself and I know!I don't know if he could handle me loving Tackey and Tsubasa- but believes it or not, he knows them ><; and don't mind about me loving them at all..

I'm so confused Kat- he keeps hinting about stuff I don't know if it's even appropriate to ask or not...*shudders* but as for now, I'm happy that he's in the eastern of Malaysia (Sarawak for that matter) and I won't be seeing him for a long while..hahaha

izabera May 16 2008, 14:50:21 UTC

Do you really regret it? At least now it's out in the open. Imagine what it would be like having these feelings and being around him for many more years as a friend, seeing him with a girlfriend or even a wife. Only you can know what is right for you but IMO you did the right thing.

ryther May 18 2008, 11:13:47 UTC

Well, I guess in some way it is good? hahahaha, what I hate to think is that...he doesn't know what he is planning to do.It's normal for someone to go with the flow,but he himself seems lost,so for now,it's a good thing that we're apart..thanks a lot for your thoughts m(___)m