Mistakes from the Past Chapter 1
Pairing: RyoUchi
Rating: PG language (will get higher)
Genre: Drama, Angst, Romance
Disclaimer: Don't own them, duh
Summary: What if every decision, every relationship, every career move was based off of one incident? What if you swore that you knew that truth about what had happened that night? What if you were wrong? And if you were what would you do to rectify it?
Ryo walked down the hallway with his head bent. He hated venturing into the junior areas for fear of seeing Uchi again. A few kouhai approached him and chatted to him to which he politely responded, but a large part of him was glad that Uchi wasn’t one of them. He shouldn’t be surprised, Uchi never really approached him anymore after having tried for over a year, but nevertheless he still kept his guard up.
It was sad really, now, when they’d pass each other in the halls neither said a word. Occasionally Uchi would give him a head nod, but other than that they really didn’t acknowledge each other. That’s not to say that Ryo didn’t think of him or miss him, but there were too many emotions and too many things left unsaid.
Seeing Uchi’s face reminded him of the guilt he had felt at seeing his friend’s career die while his rose. He felt ashamed because he knew that less than a week before the article had been published he had been drinking underage and he knew that he could have easily ended up in Uchi’s position. But above all else, he felt horror at his reaction afterwards. When Uchi needed him most, he left his friend’s side to obey management’s orders and he ignored him.
The never really had a falling out, but it was more along the lines that after not speaking to each other and ignoring each other, at least on Ryo’s part, that had become the new normal. Ryo didn’t know if he wanted to even salvage the friendship now, or if it was even salvageable, but if he did, he didn’t even know where to begin. All he knew was that Uchi had once been the most important part of his life, and now he wasn’t even in it.
“Ryo, we have an interview at noon.” Maru reminded him as he passed him in the halls. Ryo nodded and smiled, but the smile was forced. The person who was interviewing them was the same one who had written the article about Uchi. Over the years Ryo had avoided having interviews with him, but this time it was inescapable. He was one of the most widely appreciated journalists and for Kanjani8’s eighth anniversary celebrations, Johnny insisted on having coverage from the best of the best much to Ryo’s chagrin.
When Ryo made his way into the room where the interview was to take place, almost all of the other members of Kanjani8 were already seated and had polite, but tense smiles on their faces. Nobody was too thrilled about the man that they would be interviewing with, but the biggest cause of concern was Ryo unleashing his ‘poison tongue’ on the interviewer. When Yoko finally entered, the interviewer pulled out a tape recorder and set it on the table.
“I’m Hirano Yoshiyuki, nice to meet you. I figure we can start off with a group interview and then go into individual ones later if that’s alright?” The question was pointless since nobody would dare contradict the interviewer.
He started with a few banal questions about upcoming group projects and what the eighth anniversary meant to them and for this they allowed Yoko and Hina to do the majority of the talking of course the others piped in here and there, and eventually everyone spoke except Ryo who sullenly sat in his chair and willed himself to do whatever he could not to stare at the man.
“It’s kind of weird, don’t you think, that you still call yourself Kanjani8 with only seven members.” The interviewer mused and something in Ryo snapped. “The number doesn’t matter. Our spirit has not changed in eight years, neither has our ambition. We started off as Kanjani8 and that is how we will continue as Kanjani8.” The other members looked at him slightly stunned by his outburst, but all nodded in agreement.
They broke off and the interviewer opted to interview them in a separate room while the others waited.
Yoko and Hina confronted Ryo as he sat on the couch and said, “Ryo, you have to keep your emotions under control. I know you don’t like this guy, and believe me we hate what he did to Uchi, but just give him the answers he wants to hear and then you’ll be done.”
When Yasu returned and called Ryo he grudgingly walked a few doors down and opened the door to see the interviewer waiting expectantly.
“Let’s get down to business, what you said earlier about Kanjani8 still being Kanjani8, does that mean that you still consider Uchi to be a part of the group.”
Ryo inhaled and stiffened. “Uchi was removed from the group years ago.”
“Yes, that was the official statement, but what do you think.”
“He made a decision that had consequences and unfortunately that was cause for his dismissal, but until he says he no longer wants to be a part of Kanjani8, he’s still a part of it.” Ryo’s voice escalated and by the end of it he was standing up glaring at the interviewer to just looked at him.
Ryo surprised himself even with the passion that he exuded in justifying Uchi’s actions, almost too strong for somebody that he was no longer friends with.
“So even though you are no longer in the same bands, you are obviously very close.”
“Not really.” Ryo murmured ashamed of the fact that it was true and it was his fault.
He didn’t say it loudly, but just loud enough that the interviewer heard it. “Shame.”
“What?” Ryo asked challenging the man to judge him.
“After everything that he sacrificed for you, it’s a shame that you are no longer friends.”
“What the hell are you talking about?” Ryo’s face was a look of sheer confusion.
“You don’t know about it…” Yoshiyuki clasped a hand over his mouth in realization. “Nevermind.”
“Tell me.” Ryo demanded furiously, and though he was short, he appeared much more intimidating that one could ever think.
“I don’t think I should be the one to tell you. I think that this is something that you need to hear from Uchi.” Ryo set his jaw and replied to a few other questions that weren’t as loaded as the Uchi ones.
On the way out, most of the others had already left but Yoko and Hina were waiting for him in the other room. Silently, Ryo grabbed his jacket and strode out the door. “What the fuck happened?” Yoko asked seeing Ryo’s determined face, and frankly he just looked pissed off.
“Seven years ago, something happened with Uchi, you know don’t you?” Ryo hissed catching the other two off guard.
“Ryo, what are you talking about?” Hina asked and seeing the clueless looks that they shared Ryo knew that they were just as in the dark as he was.
“Nevermind. I need to talk to Uchi.”
Rating: PG language (will get higher)
Genre: Drama, Angst, Romance
Disclaimer: Don't own them, duh
Summary: What if every decision, every relationship, every career move was based off of one incident? What if you swore that you knew that truth about what had happened that night? What if you were wrong? And if you were what would you do to rectify it?
Ryo walked down the hallway with his head bent. He hated venturing into the junior areas for fear of seeing Uchi again. A few kouhai approached him and chatted to him to which he politely responded, but a large part of him was glad that Uchi wasn’t one of them. He shouldn’t be surprised, Uchi never really approached him anymore after having tried for over a year, but nevertheless he still kept his guard up.
It was sad really, now, when they’d pass each other in the halls neither said a word. Occasionally Uchi would give him a head nod, but other than that they really didn’t acknowledge each other. That’s not to say that Ryo didn’t think of him or miss him, but there were too many emotions and too many things left unsaid.
Seeing Uchi’s face reminded him of the guilt he had felt at seeing his friend’s career die while his rose. He felt ashamed because he knew that less than a week before the article had been published he had been drinking underage and he knew that he could have easily ended up in Uchi’s position. But above all else, he felt horror at his reaction afterwards. When Uchi needed him most, he left his friend’s side to obey management’s orders and he ignored him.
The never really had a falling out, but it was more along the lines that after not speaking to each other and ignoring each other, at least on Ryo’s part, that had become the new normal. Ryo didn’t know if he wanted to even salvage the friendship now, or if it was even salvageable, but if he did, he didn’t even know where to begin. All he knew was that Uchi had once been the most important part of his life, and now he wasn’t even in it.
“Ryo, we have an interview at noon.” Maru reminded him as he passed him in the halls. Ryo nodded and smiled, but the smile was forced. The person who was interviewing them was the same one who had written the article about Uchi. Over the years Ryo had avoided having interviews with him, but this time it was inescapable. He was one of the most widely appreciated journalists and for Kanjani8’s eighth anniversary celebrations, Johnny insisted on having coverage from the best of the best much to Ryo’s chagrin.
When Ryo made his way into the room where the interview was to take place, almost all of the other members of Kanjani8 were already seated and had polite, but tense smiles on their faces. Nobody was too thrilled about the man that they would be interviewing with, but the biggest cause of concern was Ryo unleashing his ‘poison tongue’ on the interviewer. When Yoko finally entered, the interviewer pulled out a tape recorder and set it on the table.
“I’m Hirano Yoshiyuki, nice to meet you. I figure we can start off with a group interview and then go into individual ones later if that’s alright?” The question was pointless since nobody would dare contradict the interviewer.
He started with a few banal questions about upcoming group projects and what the eighth anniversary meant to them and for this they allowed Yoko and Hina to do the majority of the talking of course the others piped in here and there, and eventually everyone spoke except Ryo who sullenly sat in his chair and willed himself to do whatever he could not to stare at the man.
“It’s kind of weird, don’t you think, that you still call yourself Kanjani8 with only seven members.” The interviewer mused and something in Ryo snapped. “The number doesn’t matter. Our spirit has not changed in eight years, neither has our ambition. We started off as Kanjani8 and that is how we will continue as Kanjani8.” The other members looked at him slightly stunned by his outburst, but all nodded in agreement.
They broke off and the interviewer opted to interview them in a separate room while the others waited.
Yoko and Hina confronted Ryo as he sat on the couch and said, “Ryo, you have to keep your emotions under control. I know you don’t like this guy, and believe me we hate what he did to Uchi, but just give him the answers he wants to hear and then you’ll be done.”
When Yasu returned and called Ryo he grudgingly walked a few doors down and opened the door to see the interviewer waiting expectantly.
“Let’s get down to business, what you said earlier about Kanjani8 still being Kanjani8, does that mean that you still consider Uchi to be a part of the group.”
Ryo inhaled and stiffened. “Uchi was removed from the group years ago.”
“Yes, that was the official statement, but what do you think.”
“He made a decision that had consequences and unfortunately that was cause for his dismissal, but until he says he no longer wants to be a part of Kanjani8, he’s still a part of it.” Ryo’s voice escalated and by the end of it he was standing up glaring at the interviewer to just looked at him.
Ryo surprised himself even with the passion that he exuded in justifying Uchi’s actions, almost too strong for somebody that he was no longer friends with.
“So even though you are no longer in the same bands, you are obviously very close.”
“Not really.” Ryo murmured ashamed of the fact that it was true and it was his fault.
He didn’t say it loudly, but just loud enough that the interviewer heard it. “Shame.”
“What?” Ryo asked challenging the man to judge him.
“After everything that he sacrificed for you, it’s a shame that you are no longer friends.”
“What the hell are you talking about?” Ryo’s face was a look of sheer confusion.
“You don’t know about it…” Yoshiyuki clasped a hand over his mouth in realization. “Nevermind.”
“Tell me.” Ryo demanded furiously, and though he was short, he appeared much more intimidating that one could ever think.
“I don’t think I should be the one to tell you. I think that this is something that you need to hear from Uchi.” Ryo set his jaw and replied to a few other questions that weren’t as loaded as the Uchi ones.
On the way out, most of the others had already left but Yoko and Hina were waiting for him in the other room. Silently, Ryo grabbed his jacket and strode out the door. “What the fuck happened?” Yoko asked seeing Ryo’s determined face, and frankly he just looked pissed off.
“Seven years ago, something happened with Uchi, you know don’t you?” Ryo hissed catching the other two off guard.
“Ryo, what are you talking about?” Hina asked and seeing the clueless looks that they shared Ryo knew that they were just as in the dark as he was.
“Nevermind. I need to talk to Uchi.”