Actually went to sleep at an early time, but with an extreme headache, thinkin sleep may just take it away. Nope, woke up every hr because of it and because my room was so overheated. Plans were to get up around 6ish, but couldn't get myself up till 7am. Now.. off I go to class feelin sick and hoping to come home afterwards to just jump in bed. Oh ( Read more... )

Been a few days since I've updated.. Life is still a struggle and me still miss/wishing I could talk to that "someone" It sux when you realize for one moment they were online and you know that it would be wrong for you to even try talkin to them, then they signed off before you could make up your mind. I hate this silence, but I'm trying to go by ( Read more... )

Except for my last post I just posted.. things are doin still crappy, but today went alright. I had my usual three classes today. Had a quiz in my 8:30am class, which I did horrible on even tho I actually studied for it. I went to my 2:30pm class to turn in two Lab Reports and took an Exam, which I'm praying I did decent on. Then I had my 5:30-6: ( Read more... )

Wow--Things don't ever seem to change. I apologize for going out at someone a week ago possibly, but truly I'm not the one that should be apologizing right now. Why do I have to hear from my ex, Nick, that a certain someone dropped by his work, told him about my personal life that happened over the summer or anything for that matter? Don't I have ( Read more... )

Wow--Before my night class I have my teacher, Mr. West, ask me to speak with him in a separate room. He wonders where I am and what's happening with class/other things. Well, we get in this kinda deep convo about college and where my I'm at. Mr. West learns more on my struggles that I always had in the past to the present and wonders why I carry ( Read more... )

Today is just another day which I don't even know how to begin to describe. I went to Bio and had my second exam, which I'm not even sure how well I did on it. My second class for the day was Music App., which I fell alseep watchin the video in class, a no no on my part. Then, my night class went pretty good, boring as usual, but had folks in my ( Read more... )

Today went alright.. gone to church this morning realizing how messed up I can really be. I was zoning out and felt lost. Went to the reception afterwards for one of the deacon's at my church who retired, the one who actually baptized me. Came home to watch only the beginning of the Redskin's game and worked on reviewing for my Bio exam that's ( Read more... )

Was meaning to get up around 4, but got up at 5am. Was in the car for three hours to get up to Frostburg State University to check out the open house and see the campus. I literally almost slept all the way there and back. Got there, sat in a presentation with reps of departments and listened to a panel of 5 students answering the audience's ( Read more... )

This hurt inside doesn't ever seem to go away in long periods.. I feel like I have so much I want to ask or say right now, but I don't know where to begin. I feel lost, not sure where to go about things. Tomorrow, I'm suppose to be going up with my mom to Frostburg State University to their open house. It's like I know I'll probably like this ( Read more... )

Today hasn't ended yet, but it did turn out pretty good. I was able to keep my mind occupied and at least eat two meals today that filled me. I still have those moments of lookin back or just day dreaming how things were. I truly just need to hear your voice, please give me that chance. I know soon I'll have to talk less about my thoughts/feelings ( Read more... )