Well, it is very seducing to be pitied, after all.."

Scott, Rob Roy

c&j pulls 60x3/2, straight back (well, almost). Easy))))

Last ten days:
Deadlift 65/3 x 2
Snatch pulls 55 x 3
Clean&jerked 40!!! At long last! 11 months. Its all in my head.
According to my coach there should have been 50. Ok, we'll see.
For now I'm going to take on some running. Gotta look out for new things.

If I can overcome myself I can overcome you too

Сегодня не стало Каси. 19 лет и 7 месяцев. Все кошки попадают в рай.

54. And basically still a month to go. My weight crazes me out even if know that this is a good thing. 55 is a good goal, but when I think that I have to meet 57 or maybe 58 at some point... it just scares me. A lot. But it still only talk. When it comes, I gonna drown in my hysteria, for now I will try to enjoy.

I still can't listen to the Gone Girl OST. Hits me as hard. I listened for it fir the first time after I watched the movie. And after the breakup ( Read more... )

Stressed out, ill and so out of it ( Read more... )

Gran's out of hospital. The genie is out of the bottle.
I'm tired. I was so happy in the weekend.
C&J pull 60. 60 made me happy. The I cut my hair, watched XXX, which was awesomely stupid.
And then I had nightmares. Two nights in a row.
Something in me just doesn't want to let the hell go of it.
Till death do us part. Mentally too.

Can a (wo)man start a new life on a brink of 30? I'm not much for such words, but it certainly feels like that. It's a rediscovery in a way. Being liked. Being appreciated. Being found amusing and fun. I kinda feel my inner self-esteem-a-meter rising ( Read more... )