ahh im am going to vent ( Read more... )

jordan broke up with me. i honestly never knew i could feel so hurt. ha when i told jordan that he said i was a drama queen. i feel hurt and disappointed and jealou most of all. im jealous that jordan is coming out of this so untouched. its like he doesnt care either way. and when he called me an hour ago to 'make sure i as alright' i got to feel ( Read more... )

well im back from Cali. it was so amazing, really. i wish i could have gone without my parents and family, but it was stilll truely beautiful. i dont know if people know this but California has several different climates. I did not know this small fact!!! so we gett to san jose and its like 110  but as we drive south to san fran its like 65-70.  ( Read more... )

todays my birthday. usually this time of year i run around my house and street screaming 'its my birthday'!! but not this year. i dont know maybe because im older, more mature. but probably because i feel guilty for enjoy today. i knew all five girls, some more than others but  i still miss them all. RIP angels  <3

i hate to show people that i have a weak side, that i too can get frustrated. and with all the emotinals pulsing through me, frustrated and confused are the two that worry me the most. in general im completely frustrated with boys. im at the point now where im not boy crazy and i want one boy to love and who will love me back. i really dont think ( Read more... )

i still dont beleive that im actually graduating.  after all these years of waking up at 6 and going to 9 periods of school, i just can't get over the fact that im done. thursday is going to be so wild. i dont know for some reason im scared but really excited. ill be 18 soon and going to college, woah! i feel old ...haha

life has pleasantlt taken a turn for the best. first of all and most importantly, my friends who i havent seen in months want to have an end of the year sleep-over on sunday just the 4 of us. i have finally turned in all of my cortland paperwork and have signed up for an over-night stay.  i think i kinda like someone, and i feel really immature and ( Read more... )

i want a lover i dont have to love.

ive been lying in bed since 10 when I woke up, which is not like me at all because im an early riser. as im lying in bed i know today is going to suck. now that its going on four pm, all i have done today is read, listen to music and sleep. i feel like a bum and i feel like no one likes me enough to cheer me up. why im sad i dont even know....

heyyy everyone im back!!! maybe with some flattery i will post my adventures