congratulations, you won. you are successful in being the only person to have caused me to cry in over five years.

thanks.

i have been an emotional and physical disaster.

my phone died...

my little blackberry is going up to blackberry heaven.

i have no fucking idea as to what i want anymore.

and morrissey is god.

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i have changed so much this past year, and yet, so little at the same time ( Read more... )

i reverted to previous coping methods.

i'm not sure how to feel about it either.

this will probably be one of my biggest mistakes.

emotions can be found in the words of the ideas lost in translation,

but neither the emotions nor ideas can be found when neither are cared for.

i would go for days without sleeping; downing energy drinks and pills to keep myself awake. i would be able to feel my heart pounding away, but stopping was not an option. i couldn't. i would trap myself within my mind and lose all of the knowledge i collected throughout my life and thoughts until i would be able to think through what i'd bury ( Read more... )