There's a first time for everything.
Follows this.He couldn't sleep, of course. It wasn't as if he'd truly tried. He'd stripped off his clothes, showered, shaved, puttered about in his jim-jams, but never really found his way to his own bed. His arm didn't hurt nearly so bad anymore, but he couldn't seem to stop his stomach from aching. Too
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"Sorry to wake you," he said. "I was just---"
What was he doing? He was in his jim jams, ready for bed, yet he'd never found it. Couldn't even drink his tea and relax. He wanted...well, he wasn't sure what he wanted. Proper rest. He wanted proper rest and he wanted to know she was safe and...if only his mind would stop buzzing at a billion light years a second, he could think how to get what he wanted.
"Making sure you're all right," he finished, lamely.
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She sounded hurt. He could hear it in her voice, in the way she breathed. It reminded her of when she would hold back her tears to be brave and the fact that he already knew what it was like to hear her hold back her tears to be brave made him feel positively horrible. No one should have to be like that. Especially not Rose. What had he done to her?
It was that last thought that made him hesitate before moving towards her. He was contaminating her, turning her more and more like him the more he stayed near her. He thought perhaps he should run. Run and run and keep her safe. But that was what she feared, wasn't it? She feared being left behind.
He stepped inside the room and knelt in front of the bed. Not on it, not even really touching it. Just being closer to her.
"If you live long enough, you're always left behind," he said, hating himself a little for the honesty. "And you and I, Rose, we're survivors. In the end we've just got each other. Which is probably not very helpful, is it? I don't think it is."
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And she did know. He knew she knew. How did he know? He didn't know. It was one of the many mysteries of life, along with how did Rose know he'd had a bad day when his expression looked as jovial as it did the day before when he did have a good day. And where the socks go when he puts them in the wash and---
Any train of thought he might've had was silenced instantly by Rose's mouth on his neck. More than just the breath, which he could handle, it was pressure and warmth and completely unexpected. He didn't have time to control his blood flow to his face, ( ... )
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The Doctor did not make a disappointed noise in his throat as she pulled away. To his credit, he was able to control himself and merely accept her slinking away, even if the hand at her back didn't release quite as easily. She needed to rest, not to be...uh, unrestfuled by him. No matter how much he wanted to. And he did, he realized, which was a fairly terrifying thing. There were a lot of terrifying things going on here ( ... )
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