How I became insecure about posting fic

[rsadelle]

I've made a few false starts at trying to write out this story and I've told bits and pieces of it before, mostly in tiny comments over Twitter, but I haven't told the whole thing to anyone, not even my closest friends. I didn't want - and still don't want - anyone to tell me my feelings are wrong or give me advice. While I might be able to manage

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[lakeeffectgirl]

*insert picture of hockey player giving a thumbs up here*

[rsadelle]

♥ ♥ ♥

I guess Erik Karlsson encouraging people to ignore the haters also helps.

[akadougal]

I've only recently (well, I started last summer. So, a year. How time flies) started reading Hockey RPF but I may have binged. Your fic always rings emotionally true and is intensely enjoyable. Thumbs up? Yeah, and, you know, feet too.

[rsadelle]

♥ Thank you!

[oanja]

This was really interesting! Like personally I don't really enjoy writing dialog, so it's interesting to see how you view it

[rsadelle]

It's always so interesting to see what different people like writing. I've heard other people say they don't like writing dialogue either, when it's my favorite thing to write.

The difference between this fandom (where I'm somewhat at the center of a currently popular fandom that uses AO3) and my last long-term fandom (where I was waaaay off to the side of a fandom that was declining and only really used LJ) is really startling. In some ways, I preferred the version where no one paid attention to me.

I don't think people always have to be nice or get along for the sake of getting along, but I also don't think we have to be mean. Even when there are tough things to say, we can try to say them kindly.

[withdiamonds]

I haven't written anything in ages, but reading this makes me want to write a story about both a non-celebrity sibling and a non-celebrity significant other and post it unlocked all over the place, just to get those people all worked up.

Sorry, that's less than helpful. Several years ago in a different fandom a few folks in an anon meme said some less than flattering things about a couple of my stories. The things they said were both ridiculous and pointless, but it still bothered me. Partly because I hated to realize I shared a fandom with people who were that petty and stupid, but also because no one wants to think someone doesn't like something they put so much of themselves into.

A million years ago in popslash, an anon meme did so much damage that parts of the fandom never recovered. I've hated them ever since.

[rsadelle]

Ha! That kind of rebellion is easier to do when it's not about you. I have a hockey player/OFC story I'm slacking on editing (because I would rather write something new than rewrite something old, not because of this stuff) that I started thinking about largely because I was annoyed at the misogynistic vitriol being directed at people who were posting hockey player/OFC fic on AO3.

It is hard to hear that kind of thing about your work. :(

[_whiskers]

I think you have a lot of company. I think a huge number of authors in hockey RPF feel harmed by the anon meme and I'm glad you spoke up to say something

[rsadelle]

Hi. I've been sitting on this comment without replying because I didn't know what to say because I really do not want this post to be a referendum on the evils of anon memes. I do appreciate that you paid attention and read this entry.