just got off work and i'm feelin good...got high with some people at work....joey is hot...drinking a beer (as usual) i get to work with abby and joey tommorrow yay!!!!! there pretty cool. i think i fully realized today that chris is an asshole and he can give me a blowjob. today was a great day.

i just got done drinking a six pack...

i just realized all the things that i deny and it kinda hurts ( Read more... )

45 minutes of feeling needed..in the end you end up feeling used and like a peice of trash. then why do you keep falling for it? because you think "this guy will be different..he would never hurt me...he will be my night in shining armor like you have always dreamed of" BULLSHIT.

well today was interesting...shannon told joey that i thought he was hot (but knowing shannon she probably told him that i was obsessed with him)which is going to be weird since i have to work with him all day on friday. work was pretty fun...harold is the best manager!! i found out today that my bank account is -125.00 which sucks my nuts cause ( Read more... )

half the crap i put in here is when i am drinking/drunk. from reading my past few entries it probably seems like i am a psycho alcoholic. (maybe i am ) i have to walk to work today which is going to suck nutz cause it's rainy and crappy outside. i wish guys were smarter. my new job is pretty fun the only thing that kinda sucks is standing for 8 ( Read more... )

why do i need to fall in love so quickly? i don't want to be dependent on other people. i always have this need to fell wanted and loved. it is probably normal...but i am only 19 i have to understand that i have my whole life ahead of me. like..at the same time i want someone that will never hurt me and wants to be with me forever but then at the ( Read more... )

i am an alcoholic. I WANT TO STOP BUT I CAN'T. i am a 19 year old alcoholic which is so depressing...i hate this...i want all of this to go away...i love adam,jennifer and my mom.

i haven't written in here for a while...too much shit is going on and i don't have the time to type about it

omg...kemi is gone!!!!i can't beleive this!!! i am going to miss him so bad. i can't beleive this happened ..he was such a nice guy.